[Filtered to Kurt's friends (+18)](If you've talked to him a few times, you're in.)
A colleague at work dragged me out for a coffee after a close draw with someone's elbow lunging for my
schnoz nose. Let me dispel images of me with a splint - I managed to duck out of the way just in time and I can breathe just fine. But since my past is hardly private, we got to discussing certain things over a non-fat latte.
First thing she asked me, was the possibility of Karofsky showing up in the Tower. That's a good question, isn't it? But I wouldn't mind. In the worst instance, I've got a door and I've got places to be, people I can hide behind. In the best case, we can both stare at men in the park and wonder how to hit them up. Yep. I'm being positive with my backspace button.
Blaine's engagement ring. No. That's not happening, not for as long as I can help it. I know very well that once I end back home, I might just take one look into those puppy dog eyes of his and blurt out 'yes' like a giggly school girl, but right here and now, I've been caught between somewhere rage and doubt. It's not happening as long as I'm here. Ryan Murphy can fuck my life up when I get back. I'll be happy to have my own hand in it for now.
It comes easily, being in love with the idea of someone or the idea of the perfect love that can stand through anything. Obviously, it didn't in my case. And it's probably not true for anyone, this idea. We're not Satine and Christian, belting 'come what may'. And that's okay.
That's finally okay. I can't be responsible for what happens back home, but here, it's going to be a big fat no. He can go cheat on someone else. I'm being assertive without my backspace button. Those puppy dog eyes are not going to get me this time.
And I bought a second hand piano. I'm not going to allow myself to get rusty again and I'm going to put a picture of my mom right on top. On a doily. With a flower. Some furniture's going to have t ogo.
I didn't think this through, did I? Well, I was thinking about other things.