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Tweak says, "I have a squeedily spooch"

Kurt Hummel | Glee (hippobrooch) wrote in thedoorway,
@ 2013-06-18 20:24:00

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!network post, elspeth gordie, ivy lynn, kurt hummel, nancy drew

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(If you've talked to him a few times, you're in.)

A colleague at work dragged me out for a coffee after a close draw with someone's elbow lunging for my ~~schnoz~~ nose. Let me dispel images of me with a splint - I managed to duck out of the way just in time and I can breathe just fine. But since my past is hardly private, we got to discussing certain things over a non-fat latte.

First thing she asked me, was the possibility of Karofsky showing up in the Tower. That's a good question, isn't it? But I wouldn't mind. In the worst instance, I've got a door and I've got places to be, people I can hide behind. In the best case, we can both stare at men in the park and wonder how to hit them up. Yep. I'm being positive with my backspace button.

Blaine's engagement ring. No. That's not happening, not for as long as I can help it. I know very well that once I end back home, I might just take one look into those puppy dog eyes of his and blurt out 'yes' like a giggly school girl, but right here and now, I've been caught between somewhere rage and doubt. It's not happening as long as I'm here. Ryan Murphy can fuck my life up when I get back. I'll be happy to have my own hand in it for now.

It comes easily, being in love with the idea of someone or the idea of the perfect love that can stand through anything. Obviously, it didn't in my case. And it's probably not true for anyone, this idea. We're not Satine and Christian, belting 'come what may'. And that's okay. ~~That's finally okay.~~ I can't be responsible for what happens back home, but here, it's going to be a big fat no. He can go cheat on someone else. I'm being assertive without my backspace button. Those puppy dog eyes are not going to get me this time.

And I bought a second hand piano. I'm not going to allow myself to get rusty again and I'm going to put a picture of my mom right on top. On a doily. With a flower. Some furniture's going to have t ogo.

I didn't think this through, did I? Well, I was thinking about other things.

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	Same Filter. acceleration 2013-06-18 07:24 pm UTC (link)
	~~I don't even know if love exi~~ It's good that you're letting go of what happens at home and not letting it define you here. You're your own person, and you deserve the chance to make your own choices. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Same Filter. hippobrooch 2013-06-18 07:25 pm UTC (link)
	I might think different tomorrow, but at least I've got it down on paper. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Same Filter. acceleration 2013-06-18 07:27 pm UTC (link)
	If you do, I'll show this to you and remind you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Same Filter. hippobrooch 2013-06-18 07:38 pm UTC (link)
	Yes! Do that, please. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Same Filter. acceleration 2013-06-18 08:16 pm UTC (link)
	I should write up something for myself that you can use to remind me when I'm down on myself too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	ex_nancydrew941 2013-06-18 07:59 pm UTC (link)
	You know what I am picturing now right? It involves you sitting on a piano and belting out extreme power ballads of might while I accompany you. I think this Blaine of yours doesn't deserve you. You're amazing and any boy would be really really lucky to have you. You know what I feel like we need? A party. With lots of cute boys. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	hippobrooch 2013-06-18 08:14 pm UTC (link)
	As long as you join me in 'Kiss me' from Sixpence none the richer. Or this? We were great. For a while. But I'm fucked once he shows off his puppy dog eyes. See? I'm totally going to be fucked. Can half of them be gay and the rest straight? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

ex_nancydrew941
2013-06-18 08:22 pm UTC (link)

I don't know if I have the range for the first but I can try the second. You're the singer, I can just play the piano and hum along.

He is cute. But a proven resistance to Puppy Dog eyes is having found comfort in your own skin.

Of course! Because one of us wants one and one the other! It's kind of fun to think of dating someone new. Ned's been my special friend for so long that I don't even remember the last time I went out with someone else.

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	hippobrooch 2013-06-18 08:27 pm UTC (link)
	Now hold on, I'm rusty. I haven't tickled those ivories in a while. Or not being in love? Ned's cute. But NYC is full of hot guys. Just try not to side eye me too much when I drag one of them away for a spell. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_nancydrew941 2013-06-18 08:30 pm UTC (link)
	What's that they say about getting to Carnegie Hall? Practice practice. Equally important. He is. I don't know if I was in love with Ned, but we were really close. I mean it's odd but I don't miss him as much as I thought I would. But we were used to a long distance relationship anyway. I will try my best not to side eye you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	supportcrumbles 2013-06-19 02:29 am UTC (link)
	Congratulations on the piano. WHat genre of music do you like? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	supportcrumbles 2013-06-19 07:34 am UTC (link)
	So when I wander music shops I should look for obscure musicals along with jazz now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)