[FILTERED AGAINST CLAIRE BENNET and LUCY PEVENSIE]I finished watching my show a few days ago and I've been trying to accept what happens and be strong, for Claire and for Lucy. I know the stages of grief; I was a hospice nurse. I even thought he was dead when I arrived here. So I guess I should have been ready...but I'm not.
There's this episode in my show called "The Fifth Stage." And I keep watching it over and over and wondering if there was something I could have done to make it turn out right. If only I'd tried a little harder, or done a little more...maybe I could have given Nathan the strength to fight Sylar...I can't help but think that somehow it's my fault. That I didn't give him enough reason to
try.
And I feel so empty. And alone. Nathan's always been there for me. When I was a kid, he'd always make it home for my birthday. He always took care of me. I trusted him, confided in him. He was...he was kind of my best friend as well as being my big brother.
And I don't know how to do this alone.