So this is what it feels like when you One of the things I wish I could share with people is what the planet looks like from up in the air. I always think about it when I'm flying, wishing I'd thought to bring a camera, wondering how I could ever explain. I know there are planes, but looking down from a plane never gets the point across to me in the same way. When you're up there, looking down at all of the twinkling lights spread out below me, it's so striking just how insignificant I am in all of this. I'm just one really really small drop in the bucket. I know it sounds kind of weird to like that reminder because I think at the end of the day, sometimes you really want to be
special, but I always end up thinking about what everyone else is doing. What their lives are like, who they are, who they love, who loves them, what their dreams are. And it reminds me how many people there are worth fighting for. It reminds me why I care. That I'm not ever the special one,
they are. And that's a good thing. That's always going to be a good thing. I'm proud of that part of myself. I'm proud of who I am.
I'm not ashamed, I'm not sorry, I'mI had no idea how many stars you can see at night in Estonia. That's really kind of peaceful too., in the same kind of way.
This all got depressing really fast. Um, in other news, does anyone have a helm I can borrow or know where I can get one on short notice? You know, like a helmet. Not the part of a ship. Where are all the elves when you need them?