This place is lovely and everyone is very kind, but I feel like I don’t really belong here.
I have always had a purpose. I’ve always had a role to fill. And I don’t have that here. I must admit that I miss the certainty of knowing what I was meant to do. Even in death I had something meaningful to do. And none of that is here.
I just want to help people but I’m not sure how to go about that here or if anyone even needs my help.
I cannot hear the gods and I do not have a fate set before me and that is unsettling. I have never had a life that was my own and while some might find it comforting to be free of destiny, I must admit that I do not.
Perhaps it is ungrateful to wish for more when this place is so nice and I’m alive and there are people here I care about, I just have no idea what I’m meant to do here.