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I didn't realize I'd been burning the candle at both ends as badly as I have been until I got home tonight - I used my face wash on my hair instead of my conditioner. I didn't even realize the mistake until after I'd done it. I think I need to take a few days off and just relax, maybe take some naps. Take Kurt to the park or the beach.

Been about a week since my last anxiety attack. Having a service dog has really helped. I just wish people would stop slapping the 'emotional support animal' label on companion pets. It gives the true working dogs a bad reputation. My dog is trained to respond to any fluctuation in my mood, and he intervenes and keeps my anxiety from spiking. I need him by my side when I go into new situations, he is literally the only thing keeping me from falling apart at times. I need to be able to take him into a shop, or a restaurant.

I know I'm not cured. I know the panic can still blindside me without notice.

But I feel a lot less on edge. Which can only be good for my wife and my daughter.

You know... it's pretty bad when a three year old understands the use of a service dog better than people do.

When you're out with your husband and daughter, and it's your daughter who tells someone off for trying to mess with daddy's dog. Telling them that it's not a pet. It's there to help her daddy. My little girl is definitely fierce, that's for sure.

I keep hoping that common sense will prevail but then someone uses Gorilla Glue in their hair and is then surprised at how big of a mistake it was.

I do not have the same hair care needs, however, I would imagine that nobody is keeping Gorilla Glue near their hair products. If you do, you should consider moving it.

Honestly, if it's not one thing, it's another with these dreams. So of course I was suspicious of the Mountain Men and for good reason. I found out they were using Grounder's blood to heal any of their own who were exposed to Earth's radiation. And when I say they were using their blood, I mean they had grounders in cages in a room next to medical and were basically using them for transfusions until they died. I found Anya there and I helped her escape, but we ended up in tunnels under Mount Weather and if that wasn't bad enough we ran into Reapers.

While trying to get away from the Reapers, we ran into more Mountain Men who used some sort of sonic transmitter to scare off the Reapers. I told them I knew everything and of course they wanted to take me back and put me in one of those cages, but we managed to escape and as luck would have it, after escaping Anya told me I was now her prisoner and hit me over the head.

I'd really like to stop getting hit over the head, thanks.

In other news, I'm going to be one of the newest residents at Mercy's Clinic starting next week. I'm actually really excited about this, because sometimes the hospital could get so overwhelming so this will be a nice change of pace and working somewhere run by dreamers will be nice too.

Took Tim to the roof in a dream with popcorn and sodas to watch a fight happen. Dream me is..special.

I bought a bag of sugar cookie M&Ms around Christmas then forgot about them and only just opened them and I was kicking myself over it because they're soooo good, but then I found them on Amazon and I'm tempted to order a few bags. Has anyone else had them?

I know these dreams are normal here but what about waking up with a dream injury? I broke my arm in my dreams and woke up with one. Seems unfair.

I don’t care if they did it last year. And I don’t care if the McDonald’s down the road breaks a 100 for you all the time. This isn’t last year and it’s not McDonald’s. My employees aren’t doing it without you buying anything. There’s a bank two parking lots over - go there.

Just when things were hitting what felt like rock bottom in the dreams, there was a change in the tide and things seem to be looking up now. Yeah. I'm not getting too excited. it won't last.

Seems like the hospital is where we stayed. Makes sense, actually. Even if I'm kind of isolated from everyone else.

We heard a voice near the entrance. I went to investigate, Axel followed and then so did a bunch of people that had been there. We found a man covered in blood.

There is SO much shit going on in these dreams. Supposedly the feeder isn't a feeder anymore and I'm being blamed for that. Then one of the guys, their wife was taken by those things that wanted me. I was going to give myself over, then John decided he was going to give me to them. But Axel stopped it.

These dreams are giving me a damn headache.

"If I don't come back it's been nice staring at your naked body for three years." (Really, Axel? Or dream!you.)

Yay for sub-basements and crazy adventures to get a generator back on.

We ended up in a shipyard or something. Axel had to go underwater and handing me a gun. Ferals showed up while he was in the water and I killed one of them, and should've been dead.

All dream me wants to do is find her daughter, even if there's the possibility, now, that she could be dead.

Whatever I am. Whatever dream me is, she's something. Even if she doesn't want to be.

[Axel]

This shit is getting crazy on us. Dream me went into the cage with Doc and I offered her my blood. I mean it was dream yous idea. Doc didn't want it or anything, so I bit her. What the hell?!? I don't like this. Not one damn bit.

So... donating blood for money. Dream me is completely jobless.

Got into a fight with a guy named Tommy. Had him pick a fight with me instead of his... girlfriend, I guess she was. A girlfriend who happens to be my best friend. Susan is her name.

Dylan is so much older in the dreams than what I'm used to. Her dad is a piece of crap in the dreams. Luckily, it's not Axel in the dreams.

Went to find Dylan so I could cheer her up, since her dad ditched her on her birthday for some random chick, and this volcano stuff.

Also, I'm glad that she was hiding when the intruder came in. Or, had been. Fuck. This dream shit is crazy. And the intruder killed me. Dylan was there.

Really? All of this shit is crazy.

The picture of my ma in the dreams led me to Mrs Donovan, who told me there are rules to what I can do. She knew my father, and said he had the gift too. A little girl I healed, she recognised me in town, and the people tried to mob around me, but Jonesy got me out of there. And then Samson turned the carnivale into a revival and made me pretend to heal people. Mrs Donovan's son brought her to me, and wanted her healed, but she said she didn't want it so I didn't do it. Now Samson's mad at me, and I think he knows...I can heal things. But in order to heal, I have to take the life from somewhere else.

These dreams are messed up. And it's starting to mess with my head. I don't even know what to think anymore.

Sometimes being a nurse is a thankless job. However, I get to come home to my husband and little girl. So, that makes my day so much better.

So, these dreams everyone has been talking about. I finally had one and it's... interesting. Definitely a doozy on top of it. I'm not even sure how to handle it. Seems like being... bit woke me up. From a coma. How does being bit wake someone from a coma?

Dream me was worried about Dylan and didn't even know who Axel was. Or whoever was with him. Which is understandable.

Also, some chick wanted answers that I couldn't give and I'm pretty sure she wanted me dead. And being told that your daughter is dead, that just...

I'm going to go hug my daughter now.

Also, Axel's trying to keep me there and the other marine is trying to get me out of there. All of this is just downright crazy. And THAT hurt. Like a bitch.

I think Emma is starting to teeth, her gums look red and she's been crying nonstop for the last 12 hours.

I might have even joined her for an hour.

I have tried everything I can think of.

These coming days are going to be a bit tiring, but I'm ready for them. My husband is finally back home and I couldn't be happier, no matter the circumstances. I know that Dylan's happy that her daddy is home. I'm glad that at her age this won't be hard on her. She'll bounce back real quick.