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Axel Miller [SyFy's Van Helsing] ([info]igotfirstwatch) wrote in [info]valarnet,
@ 2021-04-24 21:51:00

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Entry tags:anakin skywalker, axel miller, lily evans, ozma, vanessa van helsing

Been about a week since my last anxiety attack. Having a service dog has really helped. I just wish people would stop slapping the 'emotional support animal' label on companion pets. It gives the true working dogs a bad reputation. My dog is trained to respond to any fluctuation in my mood, and he intervenes and keeps my anxiety from spiking. I need him by my side when I go into new situations, he is literally the only thing keeping me from falling apart at times. I need to be able to take him into a shop, or a restaurant.

I know I'm not cured. I know the panic can still blindside me without notice.

But I feel a lot less on edge. Which can only be good for my wife and my daughter.


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[info]darkforcerising
2021-04-25 02:05 am UTC (link)
But people aren't allowed to ask what your dog is for, right?

By people, I mean, like shop owners, or workers.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-25 02:20 am UTC (link)
No, they're not supposed to ask. And if they do, I'm not required to answer.

The problem is people who slap a vest on a companion animal who has no training, and does not behave like a working animal, and shop and restaurant owners get fed up and try to ban all service animals, even the legit working partners.

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[info]darkforcerising
2021-04-25 02:38 am UTC (link)
Isn't banning all service animals against the ADA? And like, a person could sue?

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-25 02:44 am UTC (link)
Yeah, it is. Legit service animals can not be banned from any public space.

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[info]darkforcerising
2021-04-25 03:06 am UTC (link)
Then they deserve to get sued.

People just want to access the things they need. And they should be able to.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-25 03:27 am UTC (link)
Absolutely.

When I first came home, I couldn't even step outside the front door without anxiety. With Julius by my side, I've got a job and I'm able to take my kid to the park.

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[info]darkforcerising
2021-04-26 03:39 am UTC (link)
Came home?

Military?

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-27 07:53 pm UTC (link)
Marine. I was in Baghdad.

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[info]darkforcerising
2021-04-27 08:13 pm UTC (link)
That's rough.

Airforce. I was stationed in Italy.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-27 08:18 pm UTC (link)
Rough is a word for it.

I'm sure you didn't have it easy either.

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[info]darkforcerising
2021-04-27 08:29 pm UTC (link)
Aside from the youthful blind commitment to upholding neo-colonialism, it was great!

Great, until the airfield accident and then I'm one limb less a binary set.

But it's okay, I only work in hexadecimal and only have to count to- oh no!

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[info]theirlasthope
2021-04-26 03:53 am UTC (link)
It also makes Dylan happy because you can go outside with her more.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-27 07:54 pm UTC (link)
I'm all about making Dylan happy.

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[info]theirlasthope
2021-04-27 09:44 pm UTC (link)
Well, you definitely do that in spades, Axel. That little girl adores the hell out of you.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-29 03:21 am UTC (link)
She's a great kid. I'm fond of her too. Obviously.

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[info]theirlasthope
2021-04-29 04:52 am UTC (link)
Obviously. We should see about getting out for a while.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-30 01:18 am UTC (link)
We should. As long as it's not somewhere crowded.

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[info]theirlasthope
2021-04-30 02:50 am UTC (link)
Dylan wouldn't want us some place crowded anyway. She'd want her daddy to be good. So, probably the park or something.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-30 01:34 pm UTC (link)
The park sounds like a winner. She and Julius can run around and play.

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[info]theirlasthope
2021-04-30 06:04 pm UTC (link)
By the time we get home they'll have worn each other out.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-30 08:49 pm UTC (link)
Probably both of us too.

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[info]theirlasthope
2021-04-30 08:51 pm UTC (link)
I wouldn't trade it for the world, either.

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[info]aimed_curse
2021-04-27 05:54 am UTC (link)
A lot less on edge is definitely a step in the right direction I think.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-27 07:54 pm UTC (link)
Absolutely. When I got home this past fall, I was a mess.

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[info]aimed_curse
2021-04-28 06:30 am UTC (link)
You're a lot more self aware than some of the people I've seen who describe themselves as messes.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-29 03:22 am UTC (link)
Because I'm trying to be better. For my wife and my kid.

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[info]aimed_curse
2021-04-29 05:36 am UTC (link)
Good. I think that goes a long way towards helping get through the day. Trying.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-30 01:18 am UTC (link)
And having a reason to try harder. To keep trying when you fail, or when it's hard.

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[info]aimed_curse
2021-04-30 03:39 am UTC (link)
That's the rest of the way I think. The reason to try.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-30 01:55 pm UTC (link)
I think so too.

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[info]aimed_curse
2021-04-30 09:35 pm UTC (link)
Like I said - you're more self aware than some of the people we've had come in the Clinic. And you seem like you want to work at being there for them. Being involved and healthy.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-30 09:52 pm UTC (link)
I know I'm broken. I don't want to be broken. And I know it's a fight to put the shattered pieces back together, but they're worth fighting for.

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[info]aimed_curse
2021-05-01 03:30 am UTC (link)
I don't think anyone's ever broken really. Just very badly dented.

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[info]boyprincessofoz
2021-04-27 06:09 am UTC (link)
I'm glad he's helping. And that you're less on edge.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-27 07:54 pm UTC (link)
It's still one day at a time, but we're getting there.

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[info]boyprincessofoz
2021-04-28 06:34 am UTC (link)
And I'm willing to help with issues at work however you need.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-29 03:22 am UTC (link)
I know you are and that means a lot to me.

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[info]boyprincessofoz
2021-04-29 05:54 am UTC (link)
Also? I'm still going to slap that asshole delivery man next time he comes in.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-30 01:18 am UTC (link)
We could train Julius to bite him.

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[info]boyprincessofoz
2021-04-30 03:40 am UTC (link)
I wouldn't want Julius to get in trouble though.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-30 01:55 pm UTC (link)
I was mostly kidding, but yeah. No. I don't want him getting in trouble. I guess you'll just have to bitch slap the guy.

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[info]boyprincessofoz
2021-04-30 09:36 pm UTC (link)
It'll feel very satisfying to me. And hopefully teach him an important lesson in how he can't talk to people when he's working. Or hopefully ever but I thankfully don't see him outside of his job.

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[info]igotfirstwatch
2021-04-30 09:53 pm UTC (link)
I think if you saw him behaving like that outside of the job, he'd be a dead man. Maybe not literally dead but.

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[info]boyprincessofoz
2021-05-01 03:34 am UTC (link)
Oh it'd be much more satisfying to leave him alive after destroying his entire life if I knew him outside of the job.

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