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I spoke to my mother for the first time on SKYPE in months. Once my illness began to really affect me physically, I stopped doing SKYPE calls with my parents because they didn't know I was sick. I hadn't been planning on doing any more SKYPE calls even now, I felt that she would know something was different about me, but I've recently come to realize that it's Will and Tessa who helped me hold on to some of my humanity in the dreams and they can do the same here.

As it turns out, the only thing my mother noticed that was different was the shock of white hair that I have now as a result of the transformation. I had thought about dying it like I'd been doing when my hair was all silver from the Yin Fen, but I sort of like it.

I'm so glad Halloween season is here. I've already started decorating the apartment. My parents always go all out on the holidays so it's definitely rubbed off on me. The Halloween movies are also a plus. I'll probably watch Hocus Pocus and Rocky Horror at least fifty times this month. Sorry R.

I've been thinking about throwing a masquerade party for Halloween. The ballroom hasn't been used in such a long time and after my recent dreams about Angelique's coming out ball, I simply can't stop thinking about it. There would be an open invitation to anyone here who wanted to come of course. The more the merrier after all.

These dreams just seem to be getting worse and worse. It's still so unreal how much they affect my life here now. I've resigned from my job though it nearly killed me to do it, I've moved out of a place I called my home and away from people I called family. Sometimes it just feels like too much to cope with.

this sounds like something people from my dreams would say.

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I had started to think that maybe I wouldn't get anymore dreams. Now that they seem to have started again, I kind of wish they hadn't. I want to yell at my dream self for us trying to bring her back.