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They have a funny definition of being the "lucky" one.

Does anybody on this thing do chiro? Or know a decent place I can replace a coffee table that's a whole lot less breakable than the one I picked up at Ikea? Cause it's kind of broken now...

...Saturday nights, guys. Saturday nights.

I can't be the only one that starts dreading Monday on Sunday night. It is like this rain cloud you know that will follow you around. I have a feeling it will be one of those days already.

So my engagement lasted about as long as most celebrity marriages... It is what it is. I will be okay with a little bit of time.

In positive news I have been offered one of the last remaining spots for the Youth America Grand Prix try-outs. They are this coming weekend in San Francisco, it is last minute, but I am happy for the chance. It is the last year I am eligible to compete. I have already placed internationally in the Prix de Lausanne, so I could find work with a reputable company but this is something I want to do for me. Not for anyone else. To prove to myself I still have what it takes to perform competitively and because I love competing and ballet.

I'm creating a fund for the families and survivors of today's tragedy. Terrible thing, and in times like this one has to help how one can.

Thank you.

There's so much pain out there tonight. I wish there was something more that could be done than donating money or whatever.

That kind of loss seems unimaginable. And to ignore it seems shameful.

I haven't had any dreams here that most seem to have but just listening to people talk about them make me wonder... Wonder what it is like to have them, to wonder, to question. It brings me back to one my Uncle's favorite quotes which paraphrased asks are we the masters of our fate, or are the stars? It is the age old debate destiny vs free will.

Maybe it is just me. Though sometimes, especially here, things seem fated to happen.

Since I haven't publicly fucked things up on the network since Thanksgiving, and I'm totally addicted to negative attention and have to get my fill or something...

Barton, I've got like half a bottle's worth of ativan in a baggie that I swiped from your place months ago. Think you want it back?