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I know this may sound odd, but odd seems to be what happens in this place. Does anyone have any experience with...shapeshifting?

Bloody dreams. Am I the only one who thinks they're absolute bullshit at times?

Jeremy and I had such a wonderful long weekend, it was lovely getting away for a few days just us.

And I am very proud to say that I survived camping in the tent (though I admit I preferred the cabin).

Now it's almost time to go back to college which I'm rather excited about, I've built up my portfolio really well over the summer.

Something occurred to me last night. I've never actually seen myself in my Dreams. I mean the guy that I'm starting to believe is me. I'm not talking like I'm seeing the dreams all in first person. At least not all the time. I'm always wearing this suit of biomechanical armor and a helmet. And I mean always. Kinda weirds me out.

( Cut for talk about schoolyard bullying/children getting into fights. Viewable to all )

I grow tired of these dreams. The emotions, the memories, the feelings that come with them. They're too heavy, tiresome, a burden.

How do people cope with the dreams that seem to go against their very nature?

Tonight is a rather slow night at this place I'm working at. I'm hardly cooking any food, so I've spent the night coming up with a game. So I've been taking a ball of rubber bands I built, and am throwing through the 'O' of our sign. It bounces off the wall, comes back to me. This means I advance to another letter, or hole in the diner, something far more difficult. And once I fuck up, I have to move back to the beginning.

This has been a routine while I snack on my fries I made myself. Chili and cheese fries, with jalapenos cut up in them.

This is the life of an aspiring chef, a late night diner cooking fattening, disgusting food while playing a boring version of basketball. The waitress is just texting away and the dish guy is making out with his girlfriend in the back, so... you know, I'm bored.

So how are all of you doing?

I dreamed someone close to me was possessed by demons. It is my understanding that this is a common occurrence for us. Possession and mind control. It is not easy being a mutant.

Some days I just wonder why I even bother. Why I'm here. Why I haven't fled yet. Today? One of those days. Ugh.