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You know. I thought everyone being so angry was going to be fun. Now it's just tedious.


aka someone yelled at me at Starbucks today and it made me sad :(

I can't seem to stop being angry, kind of literally at everything. It's an obnoxious feeling to have, and playing video games doesn't help, music only makes it worse, and these stupid dreams are only making me feel as if my life is similar no matter where I go. Ugh! I want to punch something, and I've never been a violent person.

Oh whatever, it's not like any of you people will give a shit, all secluded in your own little worlds. I'm essentially talking to nothing right now... I'm going to go buy a punching bag. They can't be that bad.

[Update]

$70 DOLLARS FOR A THING TO PUNCH?! I hate capitalism now too.

This whole violence and crabby business is a bit baffling to me, not sure what could cause such a massive outburst of anger and irrationality; obviously there are many different factors that contribute to moods, mood swings, and all of it being chemical it could definitely be something in the air.

Though, I'm hazarding to guess it's something to do with the dreams, and it's a supernatural, otherworldly sort of thing; perhaps a telepathic influence from someone's dream? I don't know, but it's about time we begin coming up with ideas for dream filters. Something that somehow keeps the dreams relatively local, locked in on single individuals having them, rather than the whole community. To do that, we'd have to actually monitor someone sleeping while they're having the dream, and find out if these dreams create multiple avenues.

Oh, wait, WE DO! Haha, I have been strapping my head to a machine every night, much to Clara's chagrin I'm sure; though, in all honesty, at the moment all is to her chagrin. Regardless, I haven't been dreaming much more anymore... snippets here or there, not really showing me much of anything. But what I do notice is that quantifiable changes occur both in the dream centers of the brain and long term memory centers of the brain, as well as short term. Usually a blurb in the short term, and then a huge data spike in the long term. I need more extensive research though to really know if I can find a way to see how the dreams are capable of extending beyond ourselves.

Well this place is just getting to be a bit of a hassle. The anger is just palpable and putting me on edge anytime I go out, might end up punching the next person that gets in my faces trying to start some damned argument.

Is it still illegal to shoot someone if it's in defense of my sanity? Whatever, I don't know why so many panties are in a bunch. I've done my due-diligence in making sure my life is still as fit as ever, my mind too. I suggest whiskey, cigars, and not giving a shit as a remedy.

So I think!!!

I think before I get bad and maybe need chemo or something I really want to get a tattoo?

Because you can't get one if you're getting treated cuz it's an open wound and you have to be careful!

But I really really want something before that happens, and I think I found the perfect design (but for my back maybe?)!! Oh and with like a car speedometer instead of a clock.

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So what do you guys think pretty badass right? I think I'm going to change my "saving for a car" money to "saving for a tattoo" money cuz a tattoo is actually maybe less expensive I think that would probably be like six hundred maybe?

Someone at the gym decided taking a swing at me would be a good idea. The new ways that people find to be stupid every day will never cease to astound me.

Moose is proving to be a very good babysitter, I've found. And lord, look at all that hair Viv's got already. She takes after her father for certain.

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Who wants to spar? I need to get some energy out.

Hey, I know we have a lot of training going on here all day, but we should have a regular group gathering.

What date and time is best, and who wants to come?

I'm just letting you all know - when you start swinging at some douchecanoe in a bar and you end up in jail, the place is packed and it's a long wait for jail.

Word to the wise - pack an overnight bag before going out, just in case. Some of the regulars like to borrow toothbrushes.