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...If I dream of one more person in ridiculous hotpants, I'm going to punch something.

I'm not sure what's worse. Them or Galaxia.

So. Finally had one of those dreams everyone's having.

I was dead. And by dead, I mean undead, but dream-me definitely didn't realize that I was lying in the wake of a zombie plan crash.

So, you know, that was fun.

PS. Learning how to walk as a zombie is painful. And not because it hurts, but because it takes, apparently, hours.

No one could ever accuse me of being unsociable.

Hello. My name is Mary and I recently moved her from England for an internship. I can't say I feel at home yet, but it is a lot warmer here this time of year. I plan on taking advantage of the beach during my stay.

I'm glad I decided to go to work instead of moping around the house or hospital all the time. The kids are still pretty shaken up. This is one less weird thing for them to deal with. It's also been good for me, I'll miss the kids when the school year's over.

So much has changed for me in such a short period of time. I can only assume that more changes are imminent. It's not a bad thing, but even good changes are disruptive. With recent events, I find myself worrying about what might be coming. It feels like things have been ramping up, and I can't help but wonder what the climax of all this will be.

So. I know it probably got nothin' to do with Scott and his boy and that M'am Neena, but was curious - yesterday a beat-up trenchcoat showed up lying on my chair in my apartment. I tried it on and it fits like a damn glove. I vaguely remember it - can anybody tell me if they remember me wearin' it? When I dream I ain't the focus.

Just curious if it's somethin' from the dreams or if cherie playin' a joke on me.

Some days are good days, or at least tolerable ones. Today, however, was not one of those, or even close. I hate my therapist, I hate ME, and I hate almost every person in my life barring those of you who can actually SEE this message here and my fiancee who isn't seeing this because I don't want to bug him with it.

Today she got me to voice the thing that's been in my head for months, and now that I've voiced it, I know exactly what the fuck's going on in my life, with the people I thought gave a shit, and I'm not happy with it. Used to it, from the one side, since it's pretty much a life experience I've dealt with, and I'm coping with it, and not saying anything to the person who's picked up the thread of this dumping me when he's found something better because hell, I don't want to create drama for him that he doesn't deserve, when it's probably something I did anyway.

I just...I don't know. I knew that I didn't matter all that much to Ollie in the scheme of things, which he's proved over the years, not just this time, but from Barton? I guess we've only known each other for a year, so it's not like there's anything new going on there, but the getting dumped, and only realizing how obviously I've been dumped a couple months down the line? It sucks. It really fucking sucks.

At least I've got the most amazing fiancee in the world, but he can't be expected to shoulder all of my shit as I'm working through it. I just hate that I have to face the fact most people hate me and are ready to drop me all the same.

I'm taking the week off of school for personal reasons. I'm so glad my Mum understands that I just need time to recover from sometime. And it's not like my grades will suffer.

unlike me.

Edit: Bellatrix, I hope you're better. I hope I fixed you. Because I want you to leave me alone. If it takes calling you out in public, so be it.

What did people a hundred years ago do when they wanted to procrastinate from studying?

Tumblr vortexes. They're a thing. Don't fall in, fellow students.

The American Cup starts tomorrow afternoon. I'm so sore from practicing all day, but it'll be worth it tomorrow if I place. Tomorrow morning I'm doing an interview about everything that happened with my parents. I haven't really publicly talked about it, but now I'm ready. Then Sunday we're going to do some sightseeing around Boston and I should be back in California Monday.