Sometimes I just don't know what to think about this place. I've been here long enough now, that you'd think that I'd be used to it, but things just keep happening. I mean, I'm a vampire and my niece is a vampire and I know that those are things that happened at home, but I'm dead there and won't be able to help Elena through that transition back home like I can here. All she's going to have helping her is Stefan and Damon; not that you haven't been a great help to me, Damon, but you know what I mean. And I know that I'm basically still a newbie and there's still a lot that I don't really understand about being a vampire and there are times when I pass someone on the street and wonder what it'd be like to just bite them and drain them, but I just wish that I could be there for Elena back home. I was the one who was supposed to keep her and Jeremy safe.
Oh and then there's Jeremy. Not only am I going to be an aunt again, but a great aunt this time. Thanks for making me feel old, Jere and Bonnie. You're lucky I won't get grey hairs now, otherwise I'd blame the two of you for that too.
And I miss Ric more than I ever thought I could miss a person. I love him and no matter what was going on, he always knew what to do. And I even miss John. How crazy is that? I know he wouldn't be too happy about Elena becoming a vampire, but at least he'd be able to help Jeremy in ways that I can't. Him and Ric. I hate the fact that Jeremy has lost basically everyone.
Now I really need to hide this thing so that I'll stop typing up word vomit.
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