( colligo ¬ get collected ) → network.

I'VE NEVER HAD SEX, ALRIGHT!

Now maybe this pressure can go away.

Sometimes I just don't know what to think about this place. I've been here long enough now, that you'd think that I'd be used to it, but things just keep happening. I mean, I'm a vampire and my niece is a vampire and I know that those are things that happened at home, but I'm dead there and won't be able to help Elena through that transition back home like I can here. All she's going to have helping her is Stefan and Damon; not that you haven't been a great help to me, Damon, but you know what I mean. And I know that I'm basically still a newbie and there's still a lot that I don't really understand about being a vampire and there are times when I pass someone on the street and wonder what it'd be like to just bite them and drain them, but I just wish that I could be there for Elena back home. I was the one who was supposed to keep her and Jeremy safe.

Oh and then there's Jeremy. Not only am I going to be an aunt again, but a great aunt this time. Thanks for making me feel old, Jere and Bonnie. You're lucky I won't get grey hairs now, otherwise I'd blame the two of you for that too.

And I miss Ric more than I ever thought I could miss a person. I love him and no matter what was going on, he always knew what to do. And I even miss John. How crazy is that? I know he wouldn't be too happy about Elena becoming a vampire, but at least he'd be able to help Jeremy in ways that I can't. Him and Ric. I hate the fact that Jeremy has lost basically everyone.

Now I really need to hide this thing so that I'll stop typing up word vomit.

Okay. So I've been here for a little while now, and while I miss my Peeta, I actually do like this place a little bit better than back home. But I still need to find a job. I don't have a lot of experience, but I'm a very hard worker, and I can learn fast.

Also, and this is really awkward for me to say...I probably could stand to make a couple more friends. I just have a really hard time making friends, as I know I'm definitely not the easiest person to get along with. But since I'm going to be here for awhile, I should at least make an effort.