( colligo ¬ get collected ) → network.

Private to self
Whenever I have a good day, or I'm happy here, I feel badly.  I know that I didn't choose to come here, I didn't want to arrive without Rachel or Jake or Ax.  I didn't want to leave the war.  But I can't help but feel like there's somewhere else I should be.  So when I signed up for classes, I had a moment of happiness where I thought that maybe here I could be a vet.  Of course that made me feel even worse.

I miss them.  Every day I miss them.  Rachel is was my best friend.  Yes, the war changed us, but she will always be my best friend.  All the things (which aren't that many, to be fair) that Marco's told me seem like it's someone else's life.  I was engaged to someone who wasn't Jake.  That's...I know the war made us different, but somewhere, in the back of my mind, when I told him to wait a year after the war, I had at least hoped that it would work out.  Or something.  Not the way it had.

So when I have a good time, I can't help but have it overshadowed by missing my best friend and my b Jake.  Then, I get to thinking about Tobias.  I feel that Tobias got the worst lot of us all.  He lost everything.  And then he ended up here and found out that he lost Rachel.  I wish there were something I could do for him.
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Private to Marco
I tried flying city limits.  It didn't work.  I stopped before I ended up in a cage.
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I hope everyone who was in that fire came out okay.  It seemed rough.  I should've done something about it

Is it supposed to be therapeutic to play a video game that stars your dead dad?

So, I just have to say. Im ready to not have this kid in me any more.

I can't be the only person who thinks this is great.