PARABOLICAL GRAFFITI

...Jo's number isn't going through. All my texts keep coming back as errors, and it's like her cell was disconnected or something when I try to call her.

* Includes anyone besides Ruby who was involved in this, a.k.a. the Alastair/three Hells thread, but the stupid link wouldn't fit in the subject bar. xD

Two questions.

Are you okay, and is there anything I can do to help if the answer to the previous question is no?

We should have gotten him.

I'm making holy water. Who needs some?

( Filtered to angels and Winchesters & co )

( Filtered to good guys )

( Claires )

OOC: Anyone wanting in who hasn't said anything before should respond to this post. Jessi will have John reply to each of them ICly and he'll place them in the groups that were OOCly made up based on their abilities. Thanks!

[*Filter includes: Hyperion Hotel, Winchester Household, Justice League, Filtered against Angels that might fall in those categories]

They're going to kill me for this. Oh wait. What else is new?

I know many of you are not exactly fond of God, not Elaine, the other one, but there is news that should be considered alarming.

She's missing. Gone. None of Her Angels can find Her. The last time this happened, it nearly ended very badly, based on what I'm hearing. It's quite possible that someone has managed to capture and confine God. Again.

And for those of you who think it might no be a bad thing, stop that mind track right now.

I just made a huge ice cream and anchovy sundae if anyone wants to share.

It's strange. My mother is pulled from here. I get depressed, and it seems that many believe I'm going to torture and kill people.

Forgiveness is a funny thing. It's always black and white; either people don't forgive, or they're too easy to offer it. I don't even know if I can forgive myself. I keep telling myself that I wasn't in my right mind, that it was my mother's fault.

But, all she did was tell me to kill a few people. The tortures...that was me, or that side of me.

I have been informed that until I can permanently fix what's wrong with me that I need to stay away from certain people. I went the route of having those memories erased, but I was only confused.

I could split myself again, and kill off the malevolent side. But I think people need a little bit of that. If we didn't we would allow villains to do as they pleased; not because we want to, but because we would be too scared of being mean.


Hnnn. This all reminds me of a poem.

SPIKE HURT MY FEELINGS

He said very very hurtful things and is a VERY BAD MAN and now that little teeny bit of humanity I got left....well...gosh I want to cry... But according to the laws of message board ettiqutte  I'm supposed to whine about it first while excusing everything around my tragic little life that no one else can understand the horrors of.

So come on Spike. Tell me? Tell me why you're so very very dastardly and dare I say...mean.

You know, sometimes I look at the people and I think, why do we even bother? Sometimes it feels that no matter how much some of us do, it's never enough and people are always whining that we should do more. Not just put ourselves at risk to protect them, but cuddle them afterward. So it makes me start to think, do people ever stop to think are they worth being saved? Why do we keep doing it?

And then I remember. Because some people invent things like tequila. And tequila makes it all worth while.

I'm a crackhead too! Come have a go at me!

[Crackhead]
Don't listen to Xander. He's just upset because Anya won't let him have a threesome with you. ;)

I think some people need to get off of these things.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry about this, I know you don't really want me contacting you much, but things are... I didn't know what else to do. I didn't know who else to go to.

I wasn't planning to post for a week, because I needed to stay away for Alessa's sake for a while. But seeing the stupidity some of the people here are throwing at one of my friends, I have to speak up and say something.

Those who are doing so, lay off of Alessa! That incident a while back wasn't her fault.

She was being controlled! I haven't seen one post here blaming Dahlia for what she did, and yet she's the woman who nearly destroyed our whole world! And that second outburst from Alessa was my fault. I shouldn't have been acting like an idiot, and I pushed her over the edge with my comments. It's taken me a while and Alessa nearly killing herself, but I accept now that I was wrong.

Why is it that nobody blames the person responsible in this city? Is it that hard to believe a mother could do that to her daughter? Dahlia was an evil woman, and she was very capable of manipulation. So what if Alessa loves her? Big deal. She's her mother - it's only natural that some love for her would remain, despite everything. But the fact remains, she was the one controlling Alessa's actions. Her and that artifact she was using, whatever it was. And yet, people seem to be conveniently forgetting that as they blame Alessa time and time again, for things she had no control over.

So I guess by that reasoning, I was responsible for what I did in Silent Hill, completely, even though I was drugged out of my mind and Kaufmann was manipulating me like a puppet? Is this the trend of this city - someone gets mind controlled or coerced in some way, they do something they regret, and then they get blamed for it, while the person behind it gets away scot free?

What the hell...

All is right in the world.

Okay, so that's a load of crap, but at least I feel better. A permanent change in scenery seems to have lifted my mood somewhat.

I'm also tempted to take the time to correct certain rumors, and falsely stated facts about me, but at last I'm a little busy doing something I enjoy a little bit more. Reading.

[Filtered to Lisa]

That wasn't the first time. Back home, I was actually performing a ritual that would have resulted in my complete annihilation.

[Filtered to Peter]

I was wondering if I could talk to you.

[Filtered from Jacen]

I found myself thinking of home today. Not just Hapes...but the Galactic Alliance, the Confederation, the Imperial Remnant... Things were still so...tense. I'm happy here. The only thing that would make me more so is having Allana with us, but I wonder sometimes about the others.

[Filtered to Friends, still not Jacen lol]

He made things safer. I know he did, cost him himself to do it...

But Jaina, Ben, Captain Solo and Leia, Grandmaster Skywalker.....Even the karking droids...I just... for a time after I could barely talk to them, not because I blame them, I don't, not...not entirely...Jaina could have ... I know what had to be done. I once told Ben to be redeemed someone had to want it, and Caedus he didn't.

And then I came here, and he's here and he does want that and he's doing so well... I wonder was I wrong at home, should I have tried, should Jaina have tried harder...could he have listened to us, maybe to Ben?

I'm being silly. I know I'm being silly.

[ooc: muse got all angsty randomly :p I decided not to fight it lol]

I'm sorry for worrying you all over the past few days. I'm packing up here and heading home because this drinking shit is ridiculous.

Any leads on Alastair? I'm up for whatever you guys need me to do to help with him. I've been out of the loop on what you know, so an update would really be appreciated.

I don't want to leave things like this with you.

Kyle's gone. I guess home maybe.

I know there are a hell of a lot of problems around, all bigger than this, so I'm just going to take a really selfish moment for a bit. I'll snap out of it in a couple of hours, promise, then it'll be right back to business as usual.

I would have written individual letters for you all, but I know that everyone on our list often visits these boards, so I thought I'd tell you all here. I don't have the mindset or patience to print and mail off all those letters right now

For personal reasons, the wedding between Heather and I has been canceled. I appreciate all of the support and enthusiasm that you all have shown us throughout these past months and now I don't know what else to even say, but again, due to personal reasons, we've decided to call the wedding off.

I apologize for wasting your time. And her time.

It should be pretty easy to move here. I didn't show up with much, and I haven't bought much since then either, to be honest. Aside from wedding stuff, but that all went back. Just clothes and essentials, plus some little odds and ends here and there.

[Filtered to friends]
How's Ruby? And what happened exactly, anyway?

[Filtered to Sam]
My next doctor appointment is in two weeks. That's...that's when we can find out. I just thought you should know.

[Filtered to Jo]
I have a question.

You ever just want to drink yourself into oblivion and not wake up for a week?

I'd probably do it too, if I didn't have to go to work later this morning. I just talked to a guy who said he's coming to torture me. I'm not afraid of him, because he hasn't done anything yet in the time I've been here, but it's annoying hearing again and again that he's going to torture me. My best friend is angry at me, I'm angry at her, and I'm starting to wonder if she was ever really my friend in the first place.

Oh, and the number of people getting brought into the emergency room keeps getting worse. Yup, it's good times in L.A. >_>

I have come across several dead bodies this past week or so.  I have no shame in admitting that I did all I could to resurrect them, but it seems that particular power of mine is useless here.

[Filtered to Lisa]

For some reason the barrier you had around you is now gone.  That's bad news for you Lisa.

I don't know; I didn't care for either one of the apartments. Plus with Alessa staying with us we would need something bigger.

I'll keep looking in the paper.

Cas found Ruby. No need to keep looking. I'll be back to talk updates later, I'm going to check in with her.

My doctor's coming by at ten this morning. She'll be in and out real quick as long as everything looks good, and she'll be up in the bedroom most of the time anyway. I just wanted to let you all know so you don't panic over a stranger being in the house.

Oh. And Nymphadora Tonks is coming too. She's my moral support. Just visiting. Hope that's okay, too.

[Filtered to Tonks]
Ten this morning. You can stop by a little earlier if you'd like, stay later, whichever.

[OOC: Slightly forward-dated to tomorrow morning.]

Listen, Alessa, suicide isn't
If you see this, Ruby
Sam, you don't have to
FUCKING FUCK I CAN'T DO THIS

I know there's a lot going on right now. But if someone isn't busy and wants to just hang out for a while... Let me know?

Has anyone seen Ruby?

Raise your hand if you think Alessa is on crack!

My mom is gone. I couldn't find her anywhere.

I'm so happy.

So happy that I think I'll get drunk.

I don't know why I announced it.

Maybe I do.

I want people to know how happy I am.

I think everyone should drown their happiness in alcohol.


Tee hee.

The ring is in your top drawer.

[OOC: Slightly forward-dated to tomorrow morning.]

ooc: pretend this was sometime yesterday after she talked to sam

Hey, is there anything I can do?

[*filter includes Dean, John, and Mary Winchester; Harry Mason; and SBC!Claire]

Can any of you tell me why Heather would want to hurt herself? It has something to do with Sam. Or else he wouldn't have made that message.

[Filtered to Heather]

What happened?

* includes Dean, John, Mary, Ruby, Jo, Bobby, Faith, and SBC!Claire

Make sure he's alright. Please. I don't...know where he went, and... Just please.

fuck
i can't
FUCK

[Filtered to Heather]

Thank you.

[Filtered to Lisa]

Thanks for the gift.

[Filtered away from baddies]

Huh. Amy's gone now. I seem to have acquired a cat that used to belong someone; only that someone is no longer in this city. I have my reservations about keeping other people's pets. Especially when they used to belong to one of my close friends. Hnnn.

On an unrelated note; I find the idea of astrology to be both fascinating, and well, just a little absurd. Our lives; our personalities; and our perceptions ruled by the alignment of certain planets, and stars. It's quite absurd, but even more so because it's often accurate. To a degree.

[Filtered to close friends of Amy]

Would any of you like to adopt this cat?

I HAVE MY POWERS BACK!!

THANK YOU ANYA!

THANK YOU PETER!

I HAVE MY POWERS BACK!!!

(added for Claire!)


[Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Words*]

[Filtered away from baddies]

At the risk of...nevermind.

Can anyone recommend a good psychiatrist, or psychologist? Preferably one that's not adverse to the supernatural.

I probably should have just looked in the phonebook, but how the hell do you say, "Hi, I need to see a psychologist, oh and by the way my life has been centered around the paranormal, and supernatural!" without sounding like someone with grandiose type delusions?

If not, then I understand.

I'll just take Lisa's suggestion and start taking sleeping pills.

[Filtered to LaCroix]

Sorry about yesterday.

I think I'm too cranky to be on the internet right now.

[OOC: Heather has deleted this post to save herself the trouble of having to defend herself. And really, I'm not in the right frame of mind OOC to defend my girl right now, sorry! D: Stupid OOC.]

Of course, I was right. I didn't want to know.

And now that I've gone and thoroughly fucked over my life and cut out any and all options Back to your regularly bloody scheduled program.

What else am I supposed to do?

I saw this last night. I should know better than to watch horror movies, but I was bored, and after what Harry said, I decided to check this out and stick with it, to see if there was any creativity:

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0643108/ Obviously there are spoilers for it, although I think the ending is obvious from the start, for some viewers.



I think I'm now scarred for life.

[Filtered away from baddies]

Stupid nightmares.

I guess I won't be sleeping for a while I need to get some sleeping pills figure out a way to fall asleep again.