Alessa Gillespie (heretic_saint) wrote in paragraffiti, @ 2009-03-03 15:18:00 |
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Entry tags: | alessa gillespie, heather mason |
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It's strange. My mother is pulled from here. I get depressed, and it seems that many believe I'm going to torture and kill people.
Forgiveness is a funny thing. It's always black and white; either people don't forgive, or they're too easy to offer it. I don't even know if I can forgive myself. I keep telling myself that I wasn't in my right mind, that it was my mother's fault.
But, all she did was tell me to kill a few people. The tortures...that was me, or that side of me.
I have been informed that until I can permanently fix what's wrong with me that I need to stay away from certain people. I went the route of having those memories erased, but I was only confused.
I could split myself again, and kill off the malevolent side. But I think people need a little bit of that. If we didn't we would allow villains to do as they pleased; not because we want to, but because we would be too scared of being mean.
Hnnn. This all reminds me of a poem.