But fine. Whatever. Let the superfreak take all the glory. That was fine my be. You know why? Because Buffy was there. She was there, which meant that I had every chance to get what I wanted. And you know, it's a big deal for me, saying that I actually love someone. Usually it's just a drink and a shag and then I'm good and through with you! But with her? I'd never even think twice about taking another girl to the sack if she was obligated to me. Well. Okay. I'd have to think about it, but I wouldn't bloody well do it because I'm sure that no one could ever beat Buffy in bed anyway. Fact of the matter is, I was okay with it so long as Buffy was around. But now she's gone. Just like that. Poof. Out of my life. Again.
I love her, you know. And even though she said that she loved me, I don't think that it was true. Sure, she'll say it. But what about what's in her heart? Did she really mean it or was she just saying it because I was about to die?
Right. Well. I'm done with it. This internet thing. Tired of spewing out my fucking feelings to a bunch of people that I don't give a damn about. I'm finding a way out of this bloody city if it kills me.