bright light city

I wonder what Charlie is doing right now. I bet he misses me.

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

[Michael Bublé - Home]

I hate it It is about to be the holidays I still can't be with Edward the holidays.

Oh, this is hilarious. Bringing a vampire me to a city where the sun shines constantly. Someone is quite the comedian.

Emmett? Carlisle? Alice? Is anyone else here?

Alice is gone. I'm a vampire again. I'm going back to the apartment and away from Bella until I get a few things taken care of. God I need to eat.

They couldn't have bothered to attack in the Poker Room. They had to break into the living room first. They're lucky they didn't go near my car.

Bella, how are you?

I'm going to skip the fact that this is clearly not Alaska and somehow there is a tattoo on me, just for a moment. More importantly, where are my wife and daughter?

Explanations Please Now would be appreciated.

This morning in first period, a girl took a picture of me. When I asked her why, she told me it was because I looked like the saddest thing in the world and she found that beautiful. Then a boy gave me a flower and told me he'd pretend to be Edward if it would make me smile...

You know, at my old school singing was not cause for a three day suspension.

If my Fathers were here oh they would be filing a lawsuit so fast the administration's head would spin on it's ugly stupid mean neck. I'm Jewish, and a woman, and my parent are an interracial gay couple. The school would worry before even hiring a lawyer. Not that any of that matters to the case I have here, but I know people. They'd squirm. They'd eventually settle out of court of course, specifically to prevent the media from making this about race, or religion, or sexuality, but I would emerge victorious nonetheless.

Handsome men parading around in nothing but towels is not going to make me forget how much I miss Edward.

The day after I quite drinking and Sam Winchester walks in here in a towel asking to borrow leather pants from the vampire I live with...Why is this my life?

No less than three girls approached me in Bella's high school today when they saw me come in, asking me what I saw for them. Two girls and one boy approached me, though only the boy had the courage to ask me to bite them. One teacher asked me to plan her wedding, and someone wanted to ride in my Porsche.

That reminds me. I need a new Porsche.

I was debating enrolling in high school for something to do. I think I'll be skipping it this time around.

Jenny! You and I are going shopping. On friday, at 4:00. But more like 4:30 because whatever you're doing with Jacob until then will take some extra time.

This isn't quite what I had in mind about being in Vegas. This is terrible. Bella? You are here, right? Of course you are, but when did you get here? And why do I see you differently?

At least the apartment is nice. It could use a bit more help.

This is what happens when I get bored.

( Questions! )

I can't sleep because every time I close my eyes I want to see him.

I miss Edward, like...really miss him.

I feel like there is a hole in my chest and I can't breathe. How could he leave me like that?

Yesterday I got called a bitch and told I don't deserve him. And that Kristen Stewart blinks too much.

And that was after I was asked if I was LARPing...

( This is SICK! )

Whoa...this isn't...

Charlie?

I didn't want this. I was doing better, I