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For anyone who doesn't know there's a duel between me and Thalia this morning outside, after breakfast to see who's better with a sword. So if you want some entertainment then come watch.

Thor and Donald Blake seem to be gone. This isn

So, I had an interview at the gym on Monday and they called me back today and want me to start next Monday. I'll miss the sun and the chance to tan while working, but atleast I'll still be working. It beats going to school for sure.

Jo, thanks again for calling the gym for me. I'm just glad the bodyswap thing ended before my interview.

Does anyone else use a sword? No offense to those I train with in the mornings, but the majority of you suck when it comes to swordfighting. But at the same time I suck at archery so we're even.

i dont feel well and i dont want to go bck to schoool

I'm bored. I think I'm gonna go down to the lake for a swim. Anyone want to join me? Annabeth? Thalia? Anyone?

it really is nice having things back to normal, even if new experiences can be valuable. is it hoping for too much to wish things to stay normal for a time after this?

I'm a boy again! Now I know how Pinocchio felt when he became a real boy. Wow, that was lame.

Jo, thanks for taking care of my body.

Gonna have to go to the pool tomorrow and talk to my boss. He can't be too happy that I haven't been there. Oh well, anything is easy after you've faced off against Titans.

Can this PLEASE end?

I feel all moody today. I just want to stay home.

I miss my job.

I miss my boyfriend.

I miss my boy parts.

Ok, I'm over being a girl now. It's weird and uncomfortable and I just really want my body back. I would have liked to have actually worked my last week at the pool, but if this continues then that's not gonna happen and I'm gonna lose out on two weeks pay.

And to make matters worse I got called back for the lifeguard position at the gym, but had to tell them I wasn't here and that I'd call them back since I don't exactly sound like myself right now.

And then I just feel awkward around Annabeth right now.

Anybody want to tell me what's going on? I woke up a few days ago, minus Gwin, picked up a stick from the floor which turned into a rather impressive hammer. Next thing I knew I was flying through the (thankfully open) window and ended up... I don't know where.

All I do know is that the hammer had turned back into a stick - actually a walking cane, which proved somewhat useful since I've used it ever since in helping me walk back here. I was not made for flying and, while I feel that I could do it easily, I have no wish to attempt it. I was given feet for walking.

Also, I can't do my fire displays anymore. This is something of an inconvenience since it is my livelihood.

And I look different. I recognise my face, but it is not mine. I believe it belongs to Dr. Drake and, on occasion, his alter ego.

Before I panic completely, can anyone reassure me that this is not another dream? My feet would seem to confirm that it is, in fact, real - and it has taken me a couple of days to get back here, which would add to that confirmation. Once I have that information, I can drink a considerable amount of anything liquid, then find Gwin and sleep for as long as I need to.

As if the last week hadn't been embaressing enough. Now I'm a girl!

Annabeth, Thalia, are you guys still you?

It's actually pretty weird to think that it's my birthday, because my birthday had just passed at home before I was brought here. Atleast this year I wasn't fighting for my life with a possibility that I wasn't even gonna make it to my birthday. Actually, I could have died of embarrassment the last few days so that's not true.

I think I'm gonna go swim a few laps then head to breakfast. And if I don't get a blue cake today I guess it won't be that bad.

I can't believe I'm doing this so that people I don't even know can see it, but I have to say that I'm in love with Silvertongue's wife. Not how I love Roxanne, not even close. But she's there in Capricorn's village and she's good to me and I... do love her. That's not why I didn't let Silvertongue where she was, though. I swear it wasn't. It's just that, if he knew she was there he might not care that she hadn't been read out properly and just take her back and not bother to read me back to Roxanne.

I miss Roxanne beyond words. Beyond reason. Beyond sanity. Gwin's important to me, but I wouldn't even think twice about sacrificing him if I could have her back.

I'm sorry, Gwin, but I would.

I don't dislike it here, and I'm happy that I can show off a little with my skills. Even if it wasn't necessary to earn money I'd do it, just to focus my mind elsewhere, and to cheer people up in whatever little way I could.

But I'd sell each and every one of you down the river to go home to Roxanne. I feel no malice, and I hope you understand, but she's my heart, my happiness, my future and my life.

I never asked to be a demigod. I never asked to be attacked by monsters on a daily basis only to get blamed for every single thing they destroyed because humans can't see through the damn mist. I never asked for an absentee father or a scumbag of a step-father. All I ever wanted was to be normal. I never wanted to be a hero. And some hero I turned out to be, I can't even remember how many people....no kids....died because of me. It's my fault Charles Beckendorf and Bianca and Michael Yew and countless others died and I know it. I don't know why anyone would have wanted me in charge, because all I did was almost get Camp Half-Blood and New York destroyed.

And I don't even need to be reminded of how stupid I can be. I know that I don't think things through and people almost always get hurt. I've put my friends in danger countless times all because they believed it me, but I don't even know if I believe in myself.

And then there's Annabeth who is so smart and could have anyone she wanted. I'm afraid that one day she'll decide she's put up with my stupidity long enough and find someone else who she can have conversations with about architecture and who knows big words and can spell without having to rely on spell check for everything.

I miss my mom. She always knows just what to say or do to make me feel better, but she's at home with her new husband instead of here to bring home blue jellybeans or make me blue pancakes.

I miss the Hunters. Things were so aesy when I was with them, I knew my place and I knew what to do. It was all abuot the glory of the Hunt and the thrill of the chase, but now theirs no purpose to it.

Thank gods Percy and Annabeth are here, but its still not the same. They have each other and I have no one. I shouldn't want to have anyone, I took my Othe a long time ago and I meant it but sometimes I wonder what I'm nissing out on. I never used to have these douts but the longer I stay here the more I wonder if I made the rite choice. And the more I trian with Gale the more I want to spend time with him which is stupid because he lieks Katniss and I'm not going to get in the middel of that.

I don't even know why I'm riting all this down but I'm just tired and confused and lonely and I need a big bowl of ice creem and I can't even spel that rite.

I miss the Hunters.

I have to start looking for a new job. The pool is only open until the end of the month and after that I'll be unemployed again. I've saved up enough money though that I could probably go atleast a month without a job, but I don't want to risk running out before I find another one. I should have realized this sooner, but I was just happy to have a job that it didn't occur to me.

And then my birthday is next Thursday. It'll be the first time I haven't spent my birthday with my mom. As silly as it sounds, I'll miss her blue cake. There isn't enough blue food here actually.

I'm pretty sure Clarisse is gone. And you know, I think I'm going to miss her way of finding new ways to inflict pain on peeple in practice.

I think Silena is really gone. After training this morning I went to check on her since she didn't show up and there was no answer in her room.

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What in the name of Salaz

Excuse me? I'm not sure it's appropriate to take someone away from their home and then tell them to 'enjoy their stay'.

I'd like to be returned home Right Now, if it's not too much trouble. Which it better not be

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Anyday now I suspect..

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I hope this pool being discussed also means having a lifeguard on duty who knows CPR.

And speaking of CPR, I was thinking of offering a mini course on it for castle residents unfamiliar with it.