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I remember Vegas. All of it!

I don't know why my memory was not there, or maybe it was because the loss would have been too much. Justin left, and then I met someone else. We lived together and I build him a recording studio, and here, he doesn't know me, and I don't know what to do about that. The crazy part is that now, I am happy. Justin and I are together, better than ever.

I feel like I am cheating, even if I didn't. I feel like I want Kurt to remember all of it. It was a crazy roller coaster. I can't say I don't miss him. I do. I was lucky with the men in my life. They are completely different, but completely brilliant.


Al and Reg - viewable by all
Why didn't you tell me?

Justin - viewable by all
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I don't know what I am thinking right now, or saying.
I do love you.

Kurt - viewable by all
I want to see you. I know you don't remember any of this, but I want to see you. You aren't the same version of you and I know. I've been through this before and seen people come and go, different versions of the same person. We have a history. I don't want to scare you. This is why I know about you. I just can't get these memories out of my head now that they are back. I'm sorry but I am not.

Salazar, am I making sense?

Does anyone know of a good child doctor?

I've looked into registering Lily and Neville for school and the school requires they have a check-up.

This bloody green and silver needs to fucking go. I'm beginning to hear sodding hissing in my bloody sleep and it's not making for a pleasent Jamie. It wasn't funny before and it's not funny now. Who is with me to get rid of it before I hex all the bloody Slytherins who were responsible for it?

I miss the Hunters. Things were so aesy when I was with them, I knew my place and I knew what to do. It was all abuot the glory of the Hunt and the thrill of the chase, but now theirs no purpose to it.

Thank gods Percy and Annabeth are here, but its still not the same. They have each other and I have no one. I shouldn't want to have anyone, I took my Othe a long time ago and I meant it but sometimes I wonder what I'm nissing out on. I never used to have these douts but the longer I stay here the more I wonder if I made the rite choice. And the more I trian with Gale the more I want to spend time with him which is stupid because he lieks Katniss and I'm not going to get in the middel of that.

I don't even know why I'm riting all this down but I'm just tired and confused and lonely and I need a big bowl of ice creem and I can't even spel that rite.

I miss the Hunters.

Anyone out there?

I feel sick. And empty. And I'd fallen in love with him. And never got to say it to him. Oh I sound like a right pathetic mess.

Ron...I'd really like it if you came over.

all i wanted was to be on the X-men and i still think about it and i think about what if the Beyonder was just stupid, like what if he really just fucked things up for me? what if everything would have been fine if i had joined them? jamie says the X-men aren't bad and many of his old friends were X-men but people are always changing sides and picking sides and picking fights and sometimes i like it and sometimes i don't. Sometimes i like the peace that there is here and i know everyone thinks that is crazy because this place has crazy things but you don't get it, you guys just don't understand, here i'm not waiting for someone to show up and try and imprison me because i was born with this stupid ability. here there aren't these dudes in spandex in capes waiting to use their own powers to fuck everyone over because they're angry at someone or something or themselves or idek.

here i can swim and tan and work at the bar and have a good time


but at the same time i wonder if i was meant to do something with these powers

maybe i was supposed to be on the X-men, but what need is there for X-men here? what need is there for super heroes?

i would've been great. boom boom would've been so great god you guys don't even know