Involuntary RPG Journal Entries

Filtered to Kelly

I have a problem.

Filtered to Sadie

What are you doing today?

Filtered to Rashida

Do I have to check in on you before counseling and training this week?

Emotional and physical abuse are a common occurrence in the Russian military. That is how they maintain authority. I doubt there is much of a difference at a Vol school, no matter the denial.

People are quick to judge them on supporting Vols Rising, but their reality seems very grim, no?

[ Valya ]

Give rest, O our Savior, with the Just, to Thy servants, and set them in Thy courts, as it is written. And overlook in Thy goodness their sins, voluntary and involuntary, and all they committed knowingly and unknowingly, O Lover of men.

Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, now and ever, and to the ages of ages. Amen. Christ our God, Who didst shine on the world from the Virgin, through her making us children of light, have mercy on us.

I can't begin to imagine, but I can at least give sympathy and prayers for your family.

[ source, from when Valya gave them a copy of the Panikhida for the memorial service in August ]

[ Lottie ]

I know we're not close, but since we were almost sisters, if there's anything at all I can do, please, please let me know.

[ Edwin ]

If you see Aaron Rudd, tell him that I'll do whatever he wants in training, forever, if M the rest of them come back alive.

I'm giving up on meditating. Whenever I try in times like this, it only makes me feel worse. What do you do?

[ Javier ]

More talking maybe, unless you're training or going out in the field or being with Car or busy? If I spend much more time hitting things I'll wreck my hands.

[ Nawal ]

I feel completely lost. I'm sorry if I'm being quiet, I just don't know what to say or do.

[Filtered to Alyosha]

I assume you would have mentioned to me if so, but you haven't been affected by the nightmares or hallucination strangeness, have you? I have not experienced any of it myself, but it makes me uneasy. Sometimes I can't help but speculate whether or not the staff are letting things happen to further convince students that they must be chipped. I like freedom, but I am not willing to sacrifice my full freedom for a weekend at the beach.

I am writing a paper for one of my independent study classes and it led me to muse on the following. If you do not mind sharing your thoughts on the following, I would appreciate them.

If you had to give up one of your happiest memories in order to achieve something monumental, would you do it?

Likewise, if you could alter one of your worst memories so that it was no longer so awful, would you consider it? How much of your memory affects who you are now? If you gave up some of your memories, would it change who you are significantly, or do you feel inherent character traits would keep you relatively similar to the person you are now?

[Filtered to Miri]

Yes, why haven't you gotten your hands dirtier, Miri? You must be relying on your hair too much.

[Filtered to the Barn Swallows]

Is this where we are supposed to agree not to sabotage each other before the Barn Swallow VILF list comes out?

Does your ranking on the VILF list make you a more or less likely candidate for kidnapping?

[Filtered to Donovan, Kier, Rashida, Graham, Alyosha, and Miri]

This morning at breakfast I read an interesting memory belonging to a staff member here. There must have been a meeting recently because they were talking about how well Team Swan's trip to the beach went. It seems the administration has a few secret plans they don't want us to know about. That was explicitly said.

They really should take some of our powers into consideration.

Anyway, it seems there will be more chances for our luggage to be put to good use. We may leave this campus yet.

Kaytek the Wizard has been released in English. I have not read the story since I was a child, but I think it is comparable to Harry Potter. For those of you who are interested in such books - or cultural fables - you may like it. It would be an easy read.

But the story is not so important as its author. Korczak ran an orphanage in Warsaw. He was a popular author and good man. Unfortunately, he and the entire orphanage was moved to the Ghetto during World War II and met a tragic end. This year is the 100th anniversary of the foundation of his orphanage. If you know nothing about him, you should research him, too.

[Team Barn Swallow]

Has anyone noticed these challenges are always physical? Do they not realize some of us might show greater strides with cerebral or emotional tasks?

Strategically, I don't see myself being an asset during laser tag. If I can sneak up on someone or use Donovan's augmentation, then perhaps I could cause enough confusion in a person's spatial memory that he or she would have trouble remembering the laser tag area.

I would need to practice it, however. Anyone interested?

[Alyosha]

Care to be a guinea pig, Alyosha?

They say for some people, war is war. For others, dear mother. Friday should be interesting.

Do we think this pub night will have vodka? I will be sorry if I cannot fulfill a common (and accurate, I admit) stereotype. Tonight should be for drinking to health, sanity (or something more appropriate - I am open to suggestions), and then at least ten toasts to women. Because that is how it is done where I am from.

Do dna, those of you who plan on going. That means "to the bottom". Remember, it is bad luck to leave alcohol in your glass.