Involuntary RPG Journal Entries

[LOCKED TO SWAN MINUS CORALIE/MARIANA, DONOVAN, DAISY, WHITNEY, ELISE]

Saturday is Mariana's birthday. I think we should put together a dinner for her before Pub Night, yes? It would be nice for someone who does so much planning to have a plan made for her, and I'm sure she won't mind the attention, clearly. It is Mariana.

I think there is maybe some food from her home that we could throw together, too. Savannah? Ethan? I want to try to make some of the sweets from Brazil, like beijinhos or brigadeiros, neither seems to be that hard. And I am going to start a drink ticket pool now. I am throwing in one, who else?

[LOCKED TO HARLOW]

[...] Would it be strange for me to ask you for a favor? I need to have a birthday cake made. Oh -- I can pay for it, of course, since it is your business now, yes? That was a very good idea.

It didn't occur to me until we were in Sydney on Friday exactly how grateful I am for the fact that I am practically anonymous as a Vol. I never wanted to hide what I am, I never had a problem with the idea of people knowing, but I grew up in a place where my family was very guarded about our personal business, then moved to a city that was big enough for no one to care who I was, much less what I was. Over break I was just another anonymous traveler in a strange land, and even in the Philippines, we mostly did our job and came home. This time, I got to see how much attention some of our group was given on the streets, and though of course it was not all negative at all, I realized that I was very appreciative of the privacy. No one asked to take my picture and I was very much okay with that.

For those of you who were not given a choice about stepping into the spotlight of attention for being Vols, I feel for you. And for those of you who chose to do so in order to show the world the good side of us, you are brave souls, I think.

FUCK

Mariana needs help, someone get her to Anthony, something is wrong with my power I cannot

PLEASE someone help her, her skin it is decaying

Well now that I have been shot once, I think I am okay with it never happening again.

[ Valya ]

Give rest, O our Savior, with the Just, to Thy servants, and set them in Thy courts, as it is written. And overlook in Thy goodness their sins, voluntary and involuntary, and all they committed knowingly and unknowingly, O Lover of men.

Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, now and ever, and to the ages of ages. Amen. Christ our God, Who didst shine on the world from the Virgin, through her making us children of light, have mercy on us.

I can't begin to imagine, but I can at least give sympathy and prayers for your family.

[ source, from when Valya gave them a copy of the Panikhida for the memorial service in August ]

[ Lottie ]

I know we're not close, but since we were almost sisters, if there's anything at all I can do, please, please let me know.

[ Edwin ]

If you see Aaron Rudd, tell him that I'll do whatever he wants in training, forever, if M the rest of them come back alive.

I'm giving up on meditating. Whenever I try in times like this, it only makes me feel worse. What do you do?

[ Javier ]

More talking maybe, unless you're training or going out in the field or being with Car or busy? If I spend much more time hitting things I'll wreck my hands.

[ Nawal ]

I feel completely lost. I'm sorry if I'm being quiet, I just don't know what to say or do.

Chingadera. You would think this place is full of children instead of teenagers and twenty-year-olds. What, no one has better things to do with themselves than come up with new ways to humiliate other residents? People don't think that we all have it hard enough just being Vols or being away from our homes or being worried about what new piece of news will come out today, now we have to make things more difficult for each other, here?

I'm ashamed of us. Unless you are Kody, you have no excuse not to grow up already.

( LOCKED TO HARLOW. )

This may be coming too late, and by now I am sure many of you have already voted, or have already decided who you are voting for. I apologize for waiting until the last minute. It is very uncomfortable speaking about yourself, yes? But I think many of you don't know me, and even the people who do know me might not see why I am a good fit for the position that I was nominated for.

I do not think the Vice President position is about leadership skills, or having a plan for what needs to be done here. Everyone has very different ideas about what should be done, what we need, what is best for us as a whole, and it is up to the President to lead with a plan. I think it is the Vice President's job to figure out how to make that plan happen. I think that what makes a good Vice President is the ability to listen to what is not necessarily being said so loud, or what some people do not feel comfortable saying at all, and have the courage to put those concerns to the people who can do something about them. I also think that it is clear that the leaders of the student council both need to be able to work with anyone, no matter who takes a position in the council or as a representative. They should not let their personal feelings interfere, which is incredibly difficult, especially when we are set against each other at times in teams.

I am not a good leader, I will be the first to admit. I could not lead a student council. But if there is one thing that I can do, it is put the needs of the council before myself. I can and will do whatever it takes to see the council's plans through, and I will support everyone else who is elected to the best of my ability. I think if we can prove that we can look after ourselves, we will be proving to both the staff and the world that we are capable of a bright future, that we are reasonable and rational, and that we are willing to work towards better things.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, and please consider voting for me. I will not let down your faith.

( LOCKED TO MARIANA. )

The Vol Cl Some of us are trying to have a vigil tonight in the downstairs common room for the young Russian girl who was killed today, Anastasiya Gavrilov. She had to survive such a terrible tragedy only two weeks ago only to be murdered for being one of us. If anyone wants to read something or say a few appropriate words, please feel free. Or if you just want to come to not be by yourself tonight.

( PRIVATE TO TEAM SWAN. )

So now the HPS is a terrorist group? Is this really happening? I feel sick.

After such serious discussions all day, I'm looking forward to this evening. For anyone who knows how to salsa, or wants to learn -- Delia and I were talking about throwing another small dance outside of the bush dance, for those of you who want options? I hope other people here know how to salsa, because honestly it's been years since I've had a real class and I think I've forgotten most of it, I'll need the teaching too. Or at least patient people who won't laugh too much when we start making up the steps.

I haven't properly introduced myself on the network either, besides meeting people individually. Which has been nice so far, but I think there are a lot of interesting people I might be missing out on knowing simply because I haven't talked myself into writing my own entry. My name is Javier Diego Amaya de Jerez, I'm from the city of Jerez in Spain, and I was studying History at Universidad de Sevilla before I came here.

I've explained my ability once or twice to people, but it's complicated, so I apologize. It's being called "accelerated probability." I see glimpses of the future, and then I can warp very briefly through time in order to make the future that I see come true. Which means that if I see something but don't react, then nothing happens. I'm really awful with it. I'm still not sure why I get visions when I do or how to make the time warp work without a vision first. That would be nice on its own!