dear diary friends,
I'm sure some of you have noticed I haven't been around much lately in my physical body. but i think i'm going to be able to go back home today. to my room, i mean. Sorry Edwin, but your few days of having a single are going to come to an end. i had a really great time these last few days though, away from my physical form. it never fails to amaze me how lucky i am for my vol powers so whenever i have physical pain I can just escape it, escape into the astral plane. i didn't even have to miss any class this week. I was there with you even when you couldn't see me. a few of you even touched me, though I think that was an accident. Harlow walked right through me. funny, isn't it? do you remember it?
i think one of the reasons i really love the astral plane is because it gives me a chance to really just listen and to be. i can feel everything so much more on the astral plane because i feel connected to Gaia. and at the same time i feel it less, but in a good way. i don't feel cold or wet or dry or hot. i just feel a part of it all. i can feel this way too in my physical body but it takes so much longer to get to that point. which is still amazing that i can. that's the other reason i love the astral plane, because it lets me appreciate my body more. our bodies are wondrous things, and leaving mine really lets me appreciate being back inside it. mine betrays me, hurts me, makes me cry, but then it also lets me touch and feel and interact. it's really amazing what our bodies can do, both with just ourselves and with another. it's why i work so hard to take care of mine, because it's already so fragile. it's why i only put natural products in it. and why i come back to it even when it hurts, because i need to take care of it and feed it. it's really amazing to me what my body is and what it isn't. I think it was C.S. Lewis who said that you don't have a soul. you are a soul. you have a body.
i'm really excited to go to pub night tomorrow and be able to interact with people. i watched a movie with hailey but i was on the astral plane, so while we shared the experience, we couldn't interact. i'll be on too many pain meds to drink but i'm just happy to interact with humans again - i think it'll be easy to get drunk off that. i miss you all, my friends.
peace b w/u