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Jun. 24th, 2021


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Going on a month and a half sober now.

I'm miserable. I still cry every day.

But I'm sober. I'm not thinking about getting smashed every time I cry now.

It's a long road, and I know you're never completely better. But I'm ready to go home. I'm gonna check in with Tess every day for a while, then eventually check in weekly.

I'm broken, and I doubt I'll ever feel fixed. But I want to stay sober this time.

Jun. 6th, 2021


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Damn. Ever hear a song and just feel like the lyrics were written expressly about how you feel at that exact moment?

I had some 90s alternative playing, and a song from 3 Doors Down called "Loser" came on, and just.... damn. I am feeling this song so hard right now.

May. 23rd, 2021


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I always forget she's gone until I try to text her again. The gem really sucks.

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Ginny and Tess have been amazing. Caring and sweet, but also hard and stern when they need to be.

I don't feel like it's an exaggeration to say they're saving my life. Because I'm not strong enough to do it myself.

Ginny's been helping me turn to music rather than alcohol for my pain.

I was sitting in the kitchen this morning after breakfast, and started thinking about my love again. Instead of looking for booze, I grabbed my acoustic guitar and did this. It's an old favorite of mine, and the lyrics fit my feelings right now completely.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6IEL4WowdPI

May. 13th, 2021


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Jesus fucking Christ. I've never felt more ashamed of myself in my life than I feel right now.

So, I guess I'm staying with friends(?) for a little bit. They're gonna try to help me sober up. Kate, Kylie? You girls know where my money is, you get anything you need, ok? I'm... gonna try to get you back the Ellis you know and love.

To the rest of my family and friends... I'm sorry for what an asshole I've probably been lately. I wish I could tell you that's all in the past, but from what Tess told me, this is gonna get a lot worse before it gets much better. But at least I finally have someone who understands me enough to work with me.

Tess? Ginny? You ladies are a godsend. Since I'll probably be swearing and yelling at you both when I'm craving booze later, let me say right now that I owe you both. Big time.

May. 12th, 2021


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Who: Ellis and Tess (feat. Kenny)
Where: The End Zone, driving, then Ginny and Tess's house
When: Directly after this network post
Rating: PG-13
Status: Closed; Complete

Read more... )

May. 9th, 2021


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Happy Mother's Day, mom. Wherever you are right now... I hope you remember me.

Because god knows in a few hours I'm gonna be so fucking bombed that I won't be able to remember anyone.

May. 6th, 2021


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I've been at the bar at The End Zone for three hours now. And I'm realizing something.

This is the first time I've had a drink in six month, yet I'm still mostly sober after almost a full bottle of Jack Daniels. Whether that's impressive or sad is up to you.

All I know is, sobriety ain't gonna win this one. Hell no. Might be time to try the Asgardian mead...

Mar. 18th, 2021


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When being a materia collector and the best fighter on the planet doesn't seem to matter anymore...

What am I left with?

Mar. 8th, 2021


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My kid's getting married. I'm so excited and happy and ready to just run around like a giggly weirdo.

Kate honey? Literally anything you or Michiru need to plan this? You just tell me and I'll make it happen.

Feb. 17th, 2021


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They said at the welcome center that my dad might not show up here. I don't want to go to that group place.

Jan. 5th, 2021


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So. A good year and a half removed from my attempt at winning Universal Idol, and a lot of ups and downs later... and my debut album is finally here.

Love you guys... hope you enjoy it. Thanks to my best friend/partner in crime Skylar Bale for both producing this, and for keeping me on track when life threatened to completely derail me.





Nov. 27th, 2020


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Dude, where did the year go?

Also, 'hi' to any recent transplants. Welcome to Galador.

I'm Cosima.

If you have any questions, I'm here to help.

Unless it's the Ultimate Question of Life, the Universe, and Everything. That's already been covered.

Nov. 25th, 2020


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I never thought I'd say this... especially this close to the holidays... but I'm actually happy.

No one thing in particular changed things for me. And I still miss Arizona badly. There are some nights where I miss her so badly I cry myself to sleep. Not having Zola or my mom to go to makes it worse.

But in general? I'm happy. I'm not drinking myself into emotional submission anymore, I'm not moping and sulking. I'm enjoying my job, I'm having a blast in the studio, I'm getting closer than ever to Kate (which, btw, I need to talk to you asap, kiddo), and I've got possibly the beginning of something special with Tifa happening.

You never forget or get over your OTL. I know that. But dammit... I'm not gonna let the thing I don't have stop me from enjoying what I do have. Not anymore.

Nov. 12th, 2020


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Alright. Time to get my ass back in the game again. Time to take my horse to the old town road and ride till I can't no more. (Sorry, I had to)

MopeyEllis is a thing of the past. No more dwelling on the past. Not when there's still such a good future ahead of me.


Kate Messner
Honey? How would you feel about me... starting to see someone? I know how close you were to Arizona.

Tifa Lockhart
Hey you. Busy?

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I've run out of old Seattle Supersonics games to watch. If I were so determined, I could go find a universe where I could see them play in person. Then again, travelling from universe to universe in search of a basketball team when I could use that time to learn about other cultures, races, and species seems extremely vain and somewhat fruitless.

Oct. 29th, 2020


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So, Ben invited me to come to the studio and see if singing for a bit might cheer me up.

It didn't. I'm grateful to have him and Skylar trying, though. I did decide to pour a bit of what I'm feeling into a cover though. I love Lady Gaga, and I don't think I've ever felt a song more than I feel this one right now.

Let me know what you think.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQ-JYzDjjFA (OOC: we're obviously saying this is Ellis singing)

Oct. 21st, 2020


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I definitely chose the best place to live in the galaxy.

Oct. 20th, 2020


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So... I'm trying. I'm trying really hard not to let myself turn into a total disaster.

Sofia's been a godsend. And one of the best lays I've had in years She took Kate and I in, and is making sure that we all feel like a family, not a bunch of people trying not to fall apart.

I've managed to stop drinking myself half to death every night. I still have a bad habit of going to a bar or club, and playing an oh-so-fun game of "who's bed did I just wake up in?"... but I'm working on it. Some days are easier than others.

The loneliness is just... crippling. I found my soulmate, my one true love, and had her yanked away from me with no warning. My heart is shattered, and I just can't seem to recover.

I don't know what to do. I really don't.

Oct. 13th, 2020


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Open letter to my good friend Alex Manes, Re: Universal Idol -

I am totally crushing on you now. I hope you're proud of yourself.

Oct. 7th, 2020


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I feel like I can't do this. Coping, I mean. I drink when I'm depressed. But I know it's bad, so I try to curb some of it, and all I end up doing is sleeping around, which doesn't end up making me feel any better than the drinking. Yet I keep doin' them both...


Kate Messner
Kate, honey... I'm gonna be home late tonight. There's money in the cookie jar in the kitchen, order yourself anything you want for dinner, ok?

Sep. 24th, 2020


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The Ellis Shepherd Drunken Sex World Tour continues tonight at Ryze... where will I wake up in the morning? Who knows! Place your bets now!

Sep. 22nd, 2020


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Private to Skylar Bale

Sky. You busy? I'm kinda afraid I might've done something bad, and you're the only person I feel like I can talk to about it.

Sep. 17th, 2020


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Wow. The gem apparently decided to give me the biggest fuck-you possible.

My wife? Gone. My brother? Gone. My mother? Gone. All that on top of also losing my sister and one of my kids recently.

Kate, honey... I love you, and we'll get through this.

But you might wanna stay with Michiru tonight, because I haven't had a drink in two years, but my ass is getting fucked up tonight.

Jun. 27th, 2020


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I've never had so much fun working on a day off in my life.

I had the day off from XMH, so I spent it with my bestie (HEY SKYLAAAAAAR!) starting to shoot my first ever music video. So much work but SO MUCH FUN.

It's gonna be a while yet before I have an album ready, but this song is one I've been working on for close to a year. Enjoy the song, and also the tiny sneak peak at the video for my first single, "Fight Like A Girl"

Jun. 18th, 2020


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Ellis
My daughter showed up today! With my younger babies, too!

Chelle
I just went from empty nest to full! Brandie showed up with all the babies in tow.

May. 28th, 2020


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Filtered to Erin, Kate, Evie, Zola, Alex, and Sofia
As you know, the lives of surgeons are very hectic. And it's been hard for Arizona and myself to plan a wedding.

Sooooo... we're still gonna have a nice big ceremony for everyone in the future, but this Saturday? We're going to get married. Just a small, short ceremony, and we want you all there with us.

Filtered to Meredith Grey, Bailey Shepherd, Lita Todd, Jack Damon, and Skylar Bale
So, we're tired of waiting. Arizona and myself are getting married on Saturday. Just a couple witnesses. But we're going to have a few people at the house afterwards to celebrate, and I'd really love you all to be there.

May. 26th, 2020


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I was sitting in the cafeteria with my headphones on, listening to Samael's "Hegemony" album, and it made me have a craving to work on some #ScreamQueens stuff. Baby Sister, you feelin' it?


Arizona
Babe. Totally outta nowhere here, I know... but how's your schedule looking for this week? I'm in the mood to do something sudden, rash, and wonderful.

May. 18th, 2020


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Who: Kelly and OT visitors and doctors
What: in the hospital for heat stroke
Where: XMH ICU, then a regular room later
When: between May 13th and when she is released
Status: ongoing

Apr. 28th, 2020


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Thought I'd do my pal Alex a solid here and post the link to this. He asked me to do a spot on a song with him after hearing me on Idol, and we had a lot of fun recording it.

Alex Manes (ft. Ellis Shepherd) - "Can't Love Me"

Skylar Bale
Hey there, Boss-Lady. The Mrs. is working tonight and I'm bored... wanna meet up for coffee?

Apr. 16th, 2020


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Alright, it's been a hot minute since I've been around the network. To say I've been busy would be... a magnificent understatement. How is everyone?

Apr. 12th, 2020


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Guess who is off for the next three days. Yes, three.

Ellis

God, I need a date.

Feb. 13th, 2020


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I see other people doing this so why not?

Anyone interesting in joining me for a drink tonight? My treat.

Sep. 9th, 2019


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Does anyone here know a young man named William Hargrove? He was just brought in to the ER a little while ago, and arrived here with what appears to be multiple large stab wounds of some sort. He's in the OR right now, but if there are any healers available they might be needed.

Aug. 30th, 2019


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Universal Idol - Week 7 - Eliminations and Finale!


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The show opens with a little more fanfair than usual. This is the finale, after all. The culmination of seven weeks of blood, sweat, tears, and in some cases...alcohol. A host outside of the Idol Arena interviews fans as they wait to get inside. Who is your favorite? Any predictions for what to expect tonight? The live fan interviews are intercut with home-video clips. Recordings made by fans from across the universe who have fallen in love with the show and its performers. This show really has succeeded in becoming a Universal phenomenon.

The camera cuts to an interior shot of the arena. Fans of all shapes and sizes are packed into their seats, cheering and waving their hands. It swings around to the stage and closes in on Skylar James-Bale, wife of producer Benjamin Bale, who has stepped in to be the face of the competition since “The Incident” during week five.

Skylar smiled at the audience before looking toward the camera. "Thank you everyone for coming tonight, and thank you to those that are tuning in at home. I think we were all surprised at just how much of a positive reaction we got when we debuted. I think everyone was craving having something of their own here in Galador, and this, Universal Idol, has really become something that everyone, both native citizens and transplants, can gather together to watch and cheer for their favorites, and we are so happy to have had the chance to bring that to you."

"Anyway, as a reminder, the prize for winning is a guaranteed recording contract with Full Moon Entertainment, and the winner will be promoted throughout (currently) 5 planets. Hopefully, next round, we'll be able to promote even to even more planets."

"We hope that you enjoy the show that we've prepared, and, anyway, on with the show!" She held her hand up and waved at the audience, blowing a kiss to them before heading off stage.

On with the show! )

Aug. 21st, 2019


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Ellis

How was the party?

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Arizona
Babe. I know you're working, but I need to talk to you. Benjamin Bale's wife just came up to me at Ryze, and... if I want it, a future in music is still on the table.


Lita
BABY SISTER. Please tell me you're not busy, cos we need to talk.

Aug. 20th, 2019


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BYE I'M GOING TO A PARTY AT A FREAKNG PALACE.

[Ellis]

Did you see?! We're invited to a PALACE!

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To all idol contestants.


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You are all invited to the palace for a massive party after tonight episode.

I won't take no for an answer, see you there!