Freedomtown IC

Why is everyone here so damned stupid???

Look at you all. Partying, relaxing, being all happy... don't you realize it could all be gone in an instant if that ficken gem decides to make it happen?

You need to be prepared. Ready for the worst.

Idiots.

He said yes! The love of my life said yes!

So apparently my three year old is actually sixteen year old with the way she just said whatever to me. There was even a dramatic pause between the what and ever.

It's been taking a while to get my head wrapped around this place. Still waking up thinking all this was a dream.

?ralaib si erehw ?i ma erehw

?olleh

Speaking of timing, I wasn't expecting to start that talk today.

I said that to someone who's been in too many wars to count and could probably smoosh me under her mech's feet in a second.

But what would I know about war or timing or anything really philosophical? I'm just an autistic wrestler-turned-waitress with a massive inferiority complex.

Live your life here the fullest that you can for as long as you can.

I wish I could go home.

I know, I sound mopey and annoying. But I don't care.

I miss my mom. I miss Kimmie. I miss feeling like I'm worth a damn. I'm usually such a happy person, but for the last month or two now, I feel completely useless. Like nothing about me matters.

I just want to feel protected. Loved. Cherished. But I've never had that on a romantic level, not even once. But I at least knew Mom and Kimmie cherished everything about me.

No offense, but what the screaming hell is this? I was super in the middle of something important.