Freedomtown IC

I never thought I'd say this... especially this close to the holidays... but I'm actually happy.

No one thing in particular changed things for me. And I still miss Arizona badly. There are some nights where I miss her so badly I cry myself to sleep. Not having Zola or my mom to go to makes it worse.

But in general? I'm happy. I'm not drinking myself into emotional submission anymore, I'm not moping and sulking. I'm enjoying my job, I'm having a blast in the studio, I'm getting closer than ever to Kate (which, btw, I need to talk to you asap, kiddo), and I've got possibly the beginning of something special with Tifa happening.

You never forget or get over your OTL. I know that. But dammit... I'm not gonna let the thing I don't have stop me from enjoying what I do have. Not anymore.

Normally, I am full of joy that the wondrous, mysterious town of Twin Peaks is here with me.

But today, I find myself feeling dread rising up inside me as well. Threatening to drown the joy in it's thick, black waves.

A thought occurred to me during the night, and now I can't stop wondering: if Twin Peaks and it's surrounding woods are here... is The Black Lodge here as well? The entrance is there. It opens only under very specific circumstances, but is it actually accessible here? If that type of concentrated evil is indeed active and alive here, I fear what may happen if and when someone discovers a way to enter.

One of my friends told me I should do modeling. Not really my cup of tea, but it did inspire me to have a professional photo taken.

What do you think? Should I have more done?

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You know... when porn sites are sending you emails calling you a "valued customer", that might be a sign that it's time to re-evaluate your life.

[Violet]
How are you feeling? Haven't seen you in awhile. Let's do something on Friday! Shopping, I mean!

[Cassie, Gracie]
Want to go shopping Friday with me? Violet might come, too.

[Madden]
What are your plans this weekend?

Private to Faye Brown

Hey you! Got a few to chat? I have something I'd like to discuss with you.

[Rian]
Can I have a friend over this weekend to watch Harry Potter with me? A boy. His name is Ben.

After the usual opening, video segments were played showing each of the remaining contestants paths to this point so far. From their auditions to the judges' first reactions to them, to how they performed this week.

Eventually, all five performers were brought out onstage, with Ben walking out to address the fans.

"Each week, we're consistently getting more and more votes than we did even last season... and this week was no exception. One thing that was a bit different though... we had the closest voting race we've EVER had this week. Only 1 few hundred votes separated the highest vote-getter from the lowest. All of you should be incredibly proud of yourselves, and of the impression you made on our audience and judges."

"Unfortunately... one of you must be eliminated regardless. And this week... the performer going home will be... Neveah Dean-Ramirez."

One more week down, three more to go!

I feel like it's my destiny to bring rock to every part of this reality I can, and with all my trollz behind me, there's nothing we can't do!

YOUR QUEEN LOVES YOU ALL.