7:30 AM
I remember fighting with Stephen about the best way to handle my magic. He wanted me to control it as tightly as possible. He thought it was too dangerous for anything else. But when I was older I'd given up on that. I still meditated but it was to connect to it, not to pen it in. It felt... better. Like it was really just part of me in a normal way, instead of a part of me that was potentially terrible and destructive like a rabid dog. I don't think he ever meant to say that I was those things, but that's what it ended up feeling like. I don't think I explained that to him very well. I miss him.