Angel Grove Net

Maybe I should just have a day off. I don't feel as bad as I thought, but I'm definitely feeling a little down today. I mean this isn't a great time of year for me to start with.

Maybe this weekend I could rent something somewhere warm with an ocean view?

Truth time, since I've spent most of the holiday talking to my godfather about some things, Desmond about some others, my aunt about a few and my father and Shaun, even for the last few things that are specific to my future in our little cult.

I'm eighteen in thirteen days.

I'm sitting A-levels in May and June.

I had another bloody fit, this one including sound effects and other fun assorted party tricks whilst trying to review some of the math this morning too.

My team's meant to start training for matches next month. I won't be with them for a couple reasons and,honestly, in all of this. I'm going to come out and tell the truth.

I'm scared.

That's why I need it to be him. That's why I need to prove myself so badly, to make him notice that I can be good for him, and make him proud, and not turn out like my brot...like Jack.

Like Jack who took so much away from me before I even had a chance to make it mine. Maybe he was scared once too.

Good bet everybody's kind of scared, here, while we wait to see what way the wind blows, huh?

I couldn't be home, of course, the way I'd wished for, but I did, actually, receive a package from Greatfather Winter all the same.


The note said that he understood I missed my people and my home and the package was filled with things that the surviving Gilneans had left for me, at my grave. Notes, dried flowers, some drawings from some young ones...My favorite sweets from Tess, my sister, gloves that my mother knitted, and...a letter from my father thanking me for the service I'd rendered him.

Not too exciting the last until the bottom where he wrote the things I most needed to hear.

Gilneas still cares for me. I mattered to my father as more than his lost heir, but as my own person too, my mother and my sister remember me.

If I can't go home, at least I have ensured, through my own service, that my name stands as one who did his best for his people. I can be satisfied I was a prince like that.

Bad news: I think I'm blind
Good news: I've never enslaved a demon this powerful before

Although perhaps absorbing it like that was a bad idea

It's gotten to a point around here, somehow, where I'm reminded that my godfather IS perhaps London's finest Detective Inspector, no matter the century.

So, today, Uncle Freddie sent me out, to have some time alone with Father, I'd thought, and by the time Scout and I had come back from a walk along the beach, he very seriously informed me that tomorrow we're "past due for a rather long and rather necessary discussion".

And he was clearly, clearly, not intending to tell me he's popped the question, or anything along THOSE lines, I...

Just might be in trouble.

...Meep...

Want to see what was under MY tree yesterday?

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And while Damien DID get an additional duplicate of a present he already had, as I wasn't needing a new item in the family tartan to give to anyone else, it DID go well with his other, double presents, so there's THAT, anyway.

Incidentally, what DOES one do when they're given presents from someone they longer are speaking to? I've enlisted the help of someone else to send them back, but other ideas? Ideas for a name for this fellow?

THE FAT MAN DIDN'T PUT ANYTHING DOWN MY SACK.

THIS IS A GRAND HOLIDAY!

I just got the message I been eager to get! I showcased some of my dresses, shoes and scarves for a fashion company I been wanting to be a part of since I heard about it. Granted only very few get invited, and some have been there for years, so it's very selective of who gets chosen. I wasn't expecting to get picked, but I figured I would show some things that I have been keeping. Most of it was inspired by the Isle, the pirate crew and a few places in Auradon that I have given clothes to. So today, I got the message I been eager to get. Well rather, I got a package of dresses and a message saying I was accepted! They must have been impressed by me because I was one of the few they chose! I start after the holidays. I am so excited you will not believe it. This place has really opened the door for me. I can't wait to see what else is in store for me.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Thaaat was better than I thought. I was helping with some last minute organising, and then had a phone call, and...I didn’t share the specifics in the actual office, but as it turns out, the universe has graced me with a few things too. The one thing in this life that I could have wanted to make happen...it just did. So Lars, my third oldest brother is here. Lars is the only decent brother I have, and the only decent man in the family, and after I tried to seize a kingdom in a coup that was stupid and badly executed, and involved framing a queen for murder so I could arrange her execution and leaving a princess to die, he didn’t really...I could tell that he was disappointed, and we hadn’t really talked since my parents banished me to the stables, but for whatever weird reasons, he ended up here, for now and I think it’s going to be okay, for once?

I know it's late, brother, but I'm warning you that there may be some news stuff with me in it.

Apparently it was really exciting that I went down to some holiday stuff with Sebastian? There might be an interview. Probably some silly headlines.

Just wanted to warn you before it came up at work?

I'll see if I can remember to message Balthier before I crash about it too.

So I woke up this morning to an owl pecking my face with a letter saying I've passed NEWTS with flying colors

And then professor Strange told me I more then passed all his tests as well.

This is a brilliant day!

CHRISTMAS IS A GRAN' 'OLIDAY.

I'M HEIR AGAIN!!

And I have a friend, but more importantly than that...I actually matter, after all. I'm not an afterthought just because some people died and the line of succession changed and people DO care after all.

Don't ask me to explain the specifics but it's established now, and here I am, among other fantastic news, like my aunt turning up here and liking my father but he's not running around all hours of the day and night and going days without speaking to me either, so it's MUCH better than the last fool he kept company with. It's like there's a fighting chance at last.

I can’t remember any time in the last several months that I’ve been this happy. He wants me, all of the sudden after all, and the boyfriend is out of the picture!!! Correlation? Clearly, there was one, but now the temporary madness is over, and he wants me again. I clearly don’t have to move out, or have a hideously awful Christmas, alone, or anything like that.

AND my godfather is here, and while I can’t PROVE that there is anything going on there, it does look likely. It’s as if I’m actually being given a real
family, not forced to be near someone who wants to push me out of my own life. Of course, there is the chance that I wake up tomorrow, and I’m nothing again, and still losing my father, but, it was nice to have the last few days if nothing else.

I’d quite forgotten what it was like to matter to someone who I’m related to, you know?

Elliana is here.

She’s here and wants ME, not my brother. We always would have if their marriage hadn’t been arranged, and I did love my wife, and our partner, but Lily... we understood each other so differently to the others, and as everyone involved did die, and the others aren’t here, and Calum gave his blessing the moment he saw me take her hand, despite the fact her death a few years before ours near destroyed him.

He’s...my brother always knew. And now that we’re here, and free of royal bullshit...

And Meghan’s...fairly happy with that too. She always liked her aunt, so the idea she might be a stepmother is all right with her.

So far, so good?

So it goes, history shows, deserts must expand...

I should feel worse, but mostly I just...don’t? Feel, I mean. Glad he’s going to finally be happy.

I graduated a few weeks ago and was hired and started work with a long term patient today who they JUST approved, since he JUST got here and I was first up for getting a patient at the agency and...

It's Carl. Carl is HERE and ALIVE and I'M his nurse. I don't...

This is the BEST thing to happen to me since the revolution, I will say that much.

Connor IS my brother, of course, but Carl...

Is this what people who have parents feel like when they see them after so long?

Today I can cut my own food.

Without magic.

And using a big boy knife and fork that's not intended for senior citizens or people with disabilities that make feeding yourself hard.

And my hands aren't red and purple.

...If anybody needs something surgical performed, I never let my certifications or license lapse...

Thank everything THAT'S done until January.

No need to avoid anyone, since I'll be sleeping the entire holidays!