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I went for a jog today. I'm still getting used to having a healthy heart. It's been long enough that I should be used to it but I'm still adjusting.

Izzie would be so proud of me if she was here.

It.. seeing Cristina and Derek around sometimes really.. it makes me miss Izzie. It.. I lost a lot of years, since I was dead before I got here. Even if she was in this world..

That doesn’t mean she would still want to be with me. I was gone, she had time to get over me. I was the one who was in limbo and unable to move on. It just is hard to think about her.

I was.... I was supposed to die. I didn't want to... but my new heart... my body rejected it. I just..

Every time I close my eyes I see it. My future if I wasn't here.

Badly injured coworkers are a weird thing to adjust to. My favorite’s still out with concussion and while our understudy is obviously fantastic, Ellis and Jeremy have such a different energy around them that changes up all but the tech and orchestration. Kind of wild. Also, it’s not weird to visit said injured cast mate, right? I mean he’s currently famously alone, after a big, dramatic theatre world breakup, so...it’s a good thing to check in, right? He’s really been a good sort of mentor for me too. It’s not crazy I want to arrange to drop by his room at the hospital after they pull my stitches, right?

Edit: Not for anything romantic or sexual for the record. Jeremy's kind of old and kind of plays my abusive father figure obsessed with my stage crush. Since it's been pointed out that that looked suspect. He's actually been kind of great to talk craft with, since he's been around a long long time, but anything else would feel skeevy. It'd be wrong anyway, but it'd feel grosser than, say, Neil Patrick Harris or something. For the record.

Do you know what I love? Air. And the sun. They're both pretty amazing things. And being able to breathe and think about going home and...


Okay, so. Giant mech set off an EMP AND managed to trap the entire cast in the recording studio for DAYS without power. What else did I miss now that we're free?

If I hear one more sad thing on here, I swear...

I am glad to be alive, but I miss Izzy like crazy. She agreed to marry me and then I show up here. It's excruciating. I feel like I got this new heart for nothing.

Now that I'm feeling better, I'm going to go fishing. It's been years. Anyone like to join me?

I'm Denny.

I just had heart surgery..... what the hell is going on?