Jan. 4th, 2016 at 1:50 AM
My therapist HAS helped me with quite a lot of things and I've come to the realization, this week, that my childhood was dysfunctional and abusive, that I had a right to be happy and healthy and normal that was denied to me, and that despite the fact that Courfeyrac that I know people who have had worse does not invalidate my experiences at all. I had the right to all of those things and it was denied to me and it's all right for me to discuss this fact, and to talk about my experiences with the gravity and respect that they deserve.
I feel oddly freer, and better, than I have in years. Things are still rather awkward and terrible and messed up, but knowing I had that right, that I still am allowed to be happy and well... it helps me all the same somehow. It's like it's peace. Or something like it.
Only, could I please speak to some of the gays here? Some things about my daughter's life and death and my apparent role in the latter aren't adding up for me. Would anyone mind helping me attempt to sort that?
WARNING FOR SUICIDE DISCUSSION IN COMMENTS
I feel oddly freer, and better, than I have in years. Things are still rather awkward and terrible and messed up, but knowing I had that right, that I still am allowed to be happy and well... it helps me all the same somehow. It's like it's peace. Or something like it.
Only, could I please speak to some of the gays here? Some things about my daughter's life and death and my apparent role in the latter aren't adding up for me. Would anyone mind helping me attempt to sort that?
WARNING FOR SUICIDE DISCUSSION IN COMMENTS