Angel Grove Net

Well.

*I* was really stupid this week.

I'm just really glad Uncle Rhodey isn't here to find out about it...

Where am I? Nothing at all looks familiar. Compared to what I was seeing before coming here, this place seems pretty tame... So much death and destruction where I was before. I couldn't save the two people I loved most in this world.. They are gone forever. Gone from my life and I could not save them. This must be my punishment for not trying harder. Maybe I deserve it...

Someone mind telling me where I am?

Okay. So. I, uh. I have a problem.

I've... somehow lost my connection to the Light? I reach out and there's nothing in return. And it's terrifying For the first time in years, I just... I can't feel anything.

If this is what losing your faith is like, I get why it destroys people...

Well, I woke up in the morning, and it's still the wrong year.

I mean, ignoring everything else that's different. I wonder jet lag exists for alternate timelines?

if you really cared about a person like valued them and wanted them to be happy and to do well in the world and all of that sort of a thing; you should make sure a good thing happens for them, end of discusion.

BUT. There IS always a BUT in this stuff isn't there?

BUt if you knew a thing that would be good for someone that would cause a LOT of problems for other people that you care about...and maybe problems for you...

do you do the thing for the first person or not?

It's...confusing.

And I'm back off solid foods so my brain's running a little ragged trying to sort this out whilst counting calories. It's fine, Im fine, my doctors know, and theres a PLAN but it's a bit... My consicence says one thing and my heart, but my brain says totally another.

I'm...conflicted.

A lot.

ideas?

My daughter was mugged. She was walking home in broad daylight from the corner store, and three women knocked her out and took her things.

The only thing worth money she was carrying was her cell phone! What is this world coming to?!

I think... I think it's because she's my kid. And that scares me, for Angel and Lynette.

What IS it about people that makes playing the victim so much more attractive than getting the fuck over your so called "trauma"? The attention? The incredible ability to use this shit as an excuse for fuck all kinds of horrible ways to treat people because you're actually an asshole.

Honestly it's not like it's that HARD a thing to do.

...Yeah this is about someone specific, on this internet, and no it's probably not you. Most of you are doing your best here with a lot of crappy stuff that's happened to you. I just want to see the one I'm talking about realize he's an idiot who probably deserved it then AND now and not drag others down into the cesspit that is being close to him.

It's never worth that kind of thing, honestly.

Private: Tony Stark: It isn't you. Everything that happened to you is real and valid and you're coping pretty awesomely, considering. If only the asshole I mean was managing half so well.

Private: Basch:

You know of whom I speak. Don't trust his lying face or let him get too close to you. He'll dump you when he's through with you, besides. It's only about what he gets, not you.

I'm sleeping better with the pot but I still can't get things off my mind. I want to be able to stop seeing Peter fading away.

He.. I was holding him and he was just gone. I can't stop.... the good thing is though I haven't wanted to drink. Anyone who knows me knows I would bleed scotch if you cut me. But I'm dry.

And I actually don't miss it.

I can't... I can't sleep anymore. I keep... I thought that I was done dealing with the nightmares. How... Angel and the girls need me. I need...

I have to stop seeing... all the death. The fighting that didn't... that didn't end in our favor. It is.. I just can't stop. Every time I close my eyes.....

My birthday is not being celebrated today. Or any day. Even though it was like two days ago. But it doesn't matter.

Please do not get me gifts.

So. Things have been pretty sh crappy for a LOT of people and we've got to find a way to cheer ourselves up, haven't we?

It's stupid, but at the crisis point in those dumb movies I used to love to go to, Mickey or Judy would look at the other, and say "Let's Put On A Show!"

It might not save the day or change what happened, but it might help all of us with a LOT of things if anybody wanted to arrange for something like that. I figure anyone could do any kind of talent, with the caveat that murdering people onstage is really messy and wrong and all.

Would that be a thing anybody wanted to do? Just to lift our spirits and all? It won't make it better but there'll be a night we can still enjoy, you know?

Let me know?

I didn't.... I didn't.... I can't believe that just happened....

(Possible Infinity Wars spoilers in comments)

I heard that yesterday was the day of trickery. And as much as I would have enjoyed participating, I much prefer the surprise of it all. That is where the fun resides.

[Steve Rogers]
I wanted to offer my congratulations.

Okay. No. No No no. This is not okay.

SEND LOKI BACK RIGHT NOW.

So what do you do for a parent who lost their dad? And he actually like, loves his dad. Blondie is so sad and I don't know what to do to help.

The Scorch I took him wasn't good enough. It's not Asgardian.

I love my daughter. I do. But she still isn't sleeping through the night. I feel like I might pass out. Darcy had work so she can't help today.

I want to let Angel get some sleep. He's been up with Lynette more than I have. Usually because he beats me to the nursery. His legs are longer.

Can anyone babysit tonight? I know it's last minute, but I only just now got things planned for Angel for Valentines day.

That moment you aren't certain if it's the cold snap or you've managed to hurt yourself in a completely idiotic way. Spontaneous swelling's generally not the best of signs, the pain's the same as usual, a little more intense but not UNCOMMON and I DID have a few close calls today, doing perfectly normal activities.

I feel like something needs to change. What's the going rate for a hand repair on here these days?

I took Lynette to a Daddy and Me thing this morning. I really didn't like the other dads. I didn't take Angel because he was sleeping and I didn't want to wake him.

Next time I will take him because it was really hard to do the fake nice thing.

Christmas..... I'm not as happy as I should be.

Three days without sleep. I am starting to think that I'm hallucinating.

Anybody else hitting wine hard?