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I'm going to start going to auditions again. It's been a great break from working, but I have to try again.

I will be a star still.

My show got cancelled. I feel... I don't even know how I feel. Everything was going so well. It... I have to start all over again.

I am so so exhausted. I started back shooting and I love it but it's also super tiring.

I can't believe Christmas is almost here!

I got used to celebrating with Finn. Sometimes I wish he was still here. It was always his favorite holiday.

And it's my birthday today! I'm 27. Wow.

Quinn

What are your plans? I might see Kurt and Blaine. He's still scared of me I think. Do you.... have plans with... Ginny?

Badly injured coworkers are a weird thing to adjust to. My favorite’s still out with concussion and while our understudy is obviously fantastic, Ellis and Jeremy have such a different energy around them that changes up all but the tech and orchestration. Kind of wild. Also, it’s not weird to visit said injured cast mate, right? I mean he’s currently famously alone, after a big, dramatic theatre world breakup, so...it’s a good thing to check in, right? He’s really been a good sort of mentor for me too. It’s not crazy I want to arrange to drop by his room at the hospital after they pull my stitches, right?

Edit: Not for anything romantic or sexual for the record. Jeremy's kind of old and kind of plays my abusive father figure obsessed with my stage crush. Since it's been pointed out that that looked suspect. He's actually been kind of great to talk craft with, since he's been around a long long time, but anything else would feel skeevy. It'd be wrong anyway, but it'd feel grosser than, say, Neil Patrick Harris or something. For the record.

The show is going so well! I can't even believe it. In the recording studio at the moment, I can't even imagine it, working on songs for the show's first album. So busy.

Quinn

I miss you. How are you?

Kurt... I had to tell Quinn about Finn. It was awful.

I need to cut loose... get drunk.

Filtered to Rachel Berry
Hey. It was nice having coffee with you at Starbucks. We should do it again.

Filtered to Ginny Weasley
Dancing this weekend?

UNFILTERED

Well, I've gotten a part time job to start with while I explore my options for school. Does anyone have any idea on how to go about getting set up with school here?

Filtered to Rachel Berry
I'm sorry for last week. It was a lot.

Filtered to Ginny Weasley
I had fun going dancing Friday. It really helped. Thank you so much.

I did it! I'm going to be on national television!!! I get to act and sing, and that is just my dream job. I can't believe it.

I just wish I could tell Finn. He'd be so proud.

I've never heard of Angel Grove before. From Lima, Ohio to wherever this place is. Weird.

The thing they never tell you about getting new jobs after getting fired/technically quitting is how HARD it's going to be. You can manage to get everything else down perfectly, and you've still got people who aren't all that willing to give you a shot due to the fact you walked off the job and technically stole several hundred dollars worth of equipment and props.

I mean, eventually I returned it all, but... There's more than one ASM who REFUSES flat out to have me showing up.

I don't regret at all what happened earlier this year, but now that we're kind of in the needing cash stage, so I can keep taking care of Blaine, I'm back to square one. I mean there's the waiting tables and stuff that I've got going on the side, and my editorial experiences I can use but the second takes a while to get done, and it's a PAIN when what you really want is to go back to WORK.

I wouldn't trade Blaine's life for anything, never EVER, but sometimes it's just...really hard, you know?

I am so glad Blaine's awake. I am so sad that he doesn't remember much. That must be hard.

But I'm also deliriously happy, because I am going to be playing Mrs. Lovett in London.

I was at the hospital, waiting for Blaine to wake up.... and I was reading a fanfiction about Dean and Cas. It was all Brittany's fault. She mentioned that she talked to Dean. It's the sad one that makes me not be able to listen to I Can't Help Falling In Love, so why did I listen to it seventeen times?

I'm recording an album! I was doing an open night in LA and a record producer heard me, and he said that I have an amazing voice! I am so excited!

Everyone I know here from back home has so much going on, but I don't. I don't know how I feel about that. I mean, other than totally jealous that it's not me. I was in Funny Girl back home. I had a tv show. I got a Tony. I feel like I was set back so much when I got here.

I'm married and my husband isn't here. I mean, how does that work? Am I not Rachel St. James here? Am I just back to being Rachel Berry, who had so much potential that was being wasted? I don't know if I like the sound of that. Of either, since my husband isn't here, and me being Rachel St. James is pointless without him.

Meeting broadway famous people is still this THING I'm not over, even when they're actually your replacement, you met them in passing at the opening party because they're married to your director, and they're hanging out to review stuff before their run kicks off.

We're going into my last two weeks of Mark, and I can't believe how much the time has FLOWN. This time last year I was getting ready to audition, pretty sure I'd land up as a random Bohemian if I got anything, and NOW...

I still can't believe how AMAZING this show has been, the people that I've met, the stuff I've learned, the crazy table dancing accident adventures, and how AWESOME my cast has been. We're all still together until Saturday, at which point, people start leaving the run. I've been so lucky to get to have most of them in my life. They got me through missing Blaine like crazy, and were all so EXCITED for me when he turned up, and for my wedding...

It wasn't EXACTLY like high school or anything, Glee was something that you just CAN'T do again, but we're a pretty close knit group of crazy people who learned together, and you can't replace that easy. I hope my Bounders and I end up the same when I start Pimpernel next year.

In the meantime, I'm organizing some awesome stuff to DO while I'm off, since I want that to be a thing and spend as much time with my husband as I can. We've got a lot of time to make up for and adventures to have, and all the rest of things. It's going to be AWESOME.

I'm still gonna miss my new gang though, a little. Thank the flying spaghetti monster for twitter, huh?

KURT! KURT! I HAVE AN IDEA. I NEED YOU TO COMPLETE IT.

It's so weird being here without my husband.

AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!