Angel Grove Net

Only two more terms to go and I can graduate. That is what I keep telling myself. It's like my mantra. What is good though is that I'm actually doing well in all of my classes.

I am about ready to give up on my senior year and get my GED. I'm not, but I am about ready to. Maybe Daphne had the right idea.

I love this time of year, and its an even better year. I'm married, I'm in a great musical, the tree is up, and presents wrapped. The only thing that I wish could happen would be my dads to be here. But, I'm surrounded by people that I love.

What the hell happened?

I think this holiday is going to be great. At least I hope it will.

I can't believe this. I am so not ready for my finals. I am never unprepared. I don't like this.

I also don't really have anywhere to go for Thanksgiving, and I actually miss my mom. And Puck... and Beth. I don't know why, it's not like she ever really did anything for me. Or acted like she cared about anything other than drinking. Or my big sister Frannie. Who is better than me and can do no wrong.

Ugh.

I'm so looking forward to Thanksgiving. Back home, we always had a big dinner, lots of people coming over, decorating the Thanksgiving Day Turkey (my mom's idea). It was fun. Even though there's not many people here, we can at least try for the fun things.

Seriously, I had the worst time at the Halloween party I went to. That was most unfortunate.

Okay. First of all, I didn't get the lead for the school play, which was super annoying because I worked really hard to get it.

And second of all, at least being a cheerleader here is a lot easier than it is back home. I can't believe that, actually.

Maybe it was not quite the best idea to slip off for a haircut in the middle of the current hospital chapter of our lives, but there is very little to do while one is waiting for one's husband to wake up, and, when Enjolras or 'Toine and 'Rine, or Chastain are taking shifts at watching over Combeferre, I've been left with some spare time, my hair's been getting in my way at competitions and practices before all of this happened, and, to hell with it, it's felt like time to let go of the past for a while now, and haircuts are apparently a way that people do that sort of thing.

Mine's uh, pretty drastic, but I like it. When things manage to calm down I'll pop some pics here if you want to see them, yeah?

Well, at least this school isn't as bad as McKinley. I got student body president, so that's not so bad. I am working on my agenda. I really want to make a difference.

One minute you're at the bottom of any heaps you've ever seen and nothing could get any worse, then BAM! because it so totally can in seconds.( Accident description, drug use, suicidal thoughts )

Happy Fucking Birthday, Thea, I guess you're an adult now, lot of good that did.

Happy fucking brand new universe for somebody to screw you over in, again.

Oksy, this place is still really twisted. At least school's started up again, so this horrible year can be over that much faster. I just... the summer seemed to fly by.

Omg. I still have another year of high school. That is seriously happening. What the hell?! I want to be done already. I want to go to Yale.

Private to Rachel

Hey. So, how are you? How's the wedding planning going?

There are so many crazy bitches in this school... I also can't believe that I'm in the same classes as my best friends' kid.... it's enough to make me want to drink and I do not like to do so.

Okay.... I think I actually miss Puck... that's... that's starting to worry me. Like... do I actually have feelings for him? Makes me want to not date again ever... and I really want to be with someone.

I want to do a memorial for Finn somehow. I have so much guilt building inside of me, He made me get on that train to New York to live my dreams, he did everything so that my dreams would be fulfilled. I should have came back to him and never should have broken up with him......we should have gotten married like we were planning too...and....and.......I just wish he was here. I lay awake at times and just think about him. I know that I have to go on somehow, but I can't, not without me having someway of me saying goodbye to him.

Okay, the girls at this school are completely insane. They really are impossible to get along with, and I really don't know how I'm going to get along with them. And I am not doing the unpopular thing.

Hey..... when did you know that you liked boys instead of girls?

OMG this school.... and I'm not even close to graduating! I am IN SCHOOL with my best friends' KIDS. OMFG.