Angel Grove Net

do you ever fuly manage to acept the fact your unworthy of love and never going to be matter what you do?

Its why i wanted to marry meggie when I'm no in love with her to have at least a partner or the prospect of a partner in the future and she said shed do it but considering more carefuly, much as i want that partnership its hardly fair when she is good and clever and kind and determined and brave and im none of those things. its why before they threw me out like rubbish or even in the other case emphasized my failure to be worthy of love by choosing from a stable of prized stallions rather than love me.

i dont deny it was their right or my uncles right to deny a betrothel contract for Meggie and me but being thrown away, or just another in the second's parade of sluts or denied the contract for a point years aff in the future really paints a picture does it no?

How do you live realising your unworthy, undeserving and should have died when you were seventeen or long before? does it ever hurt any less to ken the truth of yourself and your future spent alone and that you are and forever will be nothing but cheap trash who shouldn't so much as be near anyone decent lest your scum wear off on them?

it hurts just now is all.

Well shit. Am I dead again?

The Americas? This is certainly not the continent my mother had it in her mind to send me to.

I dare to venture this is better or it would be if I didn't seem to be there alone. Has anyone seen two boys and two girls, one of whom is the most beautiful, amazing...

Well, perhaps you haven't, but do keep an eye out, yes?

I'm Leo, by the way. And you?

No, it's fine. Ruin the first day for my new position. I'm only never going to hear the end of it. From my dad whobis also sort of my boss.

...stupid Beacon Hills with it's weird ass everything.

This isn't my home.