Angel Grove Net

Just when you think life is never going to get any worse, ever, it gets simultaneously better and worse at the same time. I've had a couple days to adjust to life again, I thought, accept the fact that I was in the shittiest situation possible and was lucky to have a best friend who never gave up on me once, and I was, well, I wasn't HAPPY. I don't know if I know how to be happy, but I was grateful and relieved and I still am both of those things but then I spotted a reminder of something that I can never have or do again.

It's stupid, it really is. Big boys don't cry for two and a half solid hours because they found the place their bow was hidden, but I can't not look at it without getting hit with everything I lost, even though I'm pretty logically aware of it. It's like my heart can't figure that out yet, and I've gotta wonder if it ever will.

Losing the last thing about me that mattered hurts, and a lot more than I thought.

I'm...things are gonna be pretty messed up for a while with me if I could guess how things turn out.


I think I've hit that point of having been through way too much to deal any time soon, at least.

So this isn't totally hopeless, share with me one thing that's made you happy lately, internet?

So there's a movie about Christian and I. But, its really not me or him. I'm intrigued to see it, but yet, I don't. And to have my personal matter being exploited for everyone to see....its not something that I like at all.