Portland Net

I'm sorry for all the hurt I've caused you all. I'm sorry I can't be The Doctor you all want me to be, but there just isn't enough of me to be everyone all at once.

Which means all I can be, right now, is me. Accept that or don't, it's your choice. I'd obviously love it if you want to be with this Doctor, but Portland has changed me immeasurably and I can't live up to all your expectations.

So, I have decided to move out. Clara's coming with me and you're all incredibly welcome to visit us and the TARDIS any time you'd like. I think it's for the best, but I love you all.

I am offering dog walking services to those of you who are too afraid to come out of your houses. My prices are very reasonable. I can also get your mail or your paper or whatever other things you need. I do not wear a sheet, toga, curtains or other silly things. I'm naked. There is your warning.

Companions/Torchwood

Okay, I fucked up this whole situation.

I'm bad with words. I'm really bad at trying to explain pretty much anything that doesn't have something to do with facts.

I  I wasn't always this bad. I have a pretty roaring The survivors of Canary Wharf only met up twice, and the second time was a funeral. Someone said afterwards that no one really survived and I don't know if that's completely true, but I'm pretty sure sometimes that I left all the best parts of myself back there. That's not meant to get sympathy, in fact I'd really rather it not, but

This is really fucking difficult for me to even think about so I'm not sure how it's going to come across, but I am aware that I definitely have a  Canary Wharf changed me, a lot. I nearly died. Almost everyone I knew did die. I have Sometimes I feel like nothing is real, and I can't always trust my emotions. Sometimes I even know that, in the moment. But even if they're completely irrational, I still feel them. I can't explain why, maybe there is no why.

I never meant to attack anyone. I'm sorry. If I could take this whole thing back I would. I thought it would be better to be open about it than to bottle it up, but I handled it really badly because I could only ever go halfway towards an explanation that makes any sense. I don't dislike any of you and I really am trying. I'm not really sure what to say to make it better.

Anyway, for now I'm just going to go and be alone for a while, so, if anyone replies, I'm not ignoring you. I just can't deal with a conversation right now.

Added:
Steve Rogers

Normally this would be the sort of thing I'd know, but, well, I don't. But you're pretty well-connected... do you know if there's anyone working in [...] maybe veteran's affairs, who knows about the wormhole?

Have you heard anything from Silas?

[Private to David]

Will you come and stay with me for a little while?

[Private to Robin]

Are you freaking out?

[Private to Blair]

You have to be careful, B.

So, are we going to talk about this Kol problem or are we just going to pretend that Diana isn't a vampire's slut?