Portland Net

Wow. People can really surprise you sometimes. Even when you have no expectations to begin with. It's good to know that there are still surprises in the world. Speaking of surprises I got my college apps done, so I'm just waiting on replies. I realize it will be awhile though so I am going to do my best not to stress myself out in the meantime.

Private to Rachel

Please do not think that this is in any way to cause problems, because it's not. I just want you to know that Finn's forbidden me to speak to you. I of course told him you were a grown woman.

Look. I know that we're not going to be friends anytime soon, but I am wanting you to know that I do not have a grand plan to steal Rachel away. I don't want you to think that I'm lying in wait because I'm not. That's all.

Blaine and I were planning on having a long engagement with some fabulous wedding in New York City, but those plans were obviously torpedoed. It isn't even legal for us to get married in this state, which is disgusting. You're behind the times, Oregon. It's 2014.

But, if we have a ceremony out of state and come back here, they have to recognize it. If we wait until we go home (if we ever go home), my brother won't be able to attend, so we decided we wanted to get married sooner rather than later. We're still not set on the details, but we've decided that that's what we want.

Gay wedding on the horizon, people. May you never see anything more stylish or beautiful.

Well, my hand is cramped from filling out all these college applications. But I know it's the right thing to do.

I'll never get used to this.

I think I'm coffeed out for the next few days, and I finally have a day to sit down and look over this college app book I got. See if I can figure out what I'm doing with it.

Well, Holly just made me feel like I was psychoanalyzed big time.

I've had crazy nights before but never one like last night. Let's just say I've never woken up naked, in the forest next to a decimated chicken...

Sometimes I have a jones for caffeine, and sometimes I don't. Today I had a need. I couldn't sleep last night.

I am so over spiraling into the depths of depression. It's making me break out like crazy. I need to drastically lower my stress levels before I develop a hernia.

I've decided that we're hosting a MOVIE NIGHT! The local big box store that must not be named to allay my guilt at shopping at such a cesspool of human rights violations was having a sale on classic musicals. We're talking Funny Girl, Singing in the Rain, My Fair Lady, and the DVD of the 10th anniversary dream cast of Les Mis. All day Sunday. Hors d'oeuvres, pizza and dessert are on me for anyone who wants to come.

Well, I'm working at the coffee shop in town, so at least that means I'm covered there. I did some grocery shopping, light, though, till I get my first paycheck. And when I get more settled I think I'll look into college, or maybe start my consulting job up again. Either way, I suppose I need to make the most of this. Since I'm here and not going anywhere, that is. I would like the idea of college I think though, I might enroll in the Dance Academy, if I can swing paying for it, that is.

Portland?

Portland?

I don't know how I got here, or why, or if I'm still dreaming the most vivid of dreams, but I do not belong here. I need to get back to New York. Back to my friends, back to my job and back to my dreams.

So, this place is what? Where am I? Portland, that's what I was told, correct? I don't know if I like this... although I do have a place to stay. So I guess I need to look into a job. I think maybe college would be something good, so maybe I could look into that and get something parttime. College didn't work out right away but that doesn't mean that it wouldn't this time. Is there anyone here I know? I am very confused by all of this and I need to sit down. Maybe grab a coffee.