That asshole took my friend's magic.
Private to Stiles
Can you cover my shift tonight?
Are you okay?
You're still here, right?
And yes, I am gonna miss the suit. ;)
I don't even know how to start this, but I've been thinking about what to say to you for weeks now, so I'm just gonna start typing and see what comes out.
Thank you. For looking for me. For saving me. For not giving up on me. You don't know what that means to me, and I'm so sorry that I put you through all that. The only thing I could think of while I was trapped in that garage was that I would never see you again, and it was the single most horrible thought my brain could come up with. It didn't matter to me that I was going to die. What mattered to me was that I was going to die without you. And I never wanna feel that way again.
There was a point in my life when I thought I understood what true love was. I thought that I was going to love Ezra forever and that despite all the hardships we faced, he and I were destined to be together no matter what. I couldn't have been more wrong. And when I was in that garage thinking of something in my life worth fighting for, I never once thought about him. I know he's not here, but I don't think that would have made much of a difference. Not that I didn't love him. I did. I do. But I don't think it would have ever worked out with us.
Instead, I thought about you. I pictured you in my head, just smiling at me with chocolate donut frosting on your chin. I don't know why it was on your chin, but for a second there it made me laugh. And I needed that. I needed you. And you came through for me. And I still need you. To remind me what it's like to laugh again, because I'm afraid that I forgot what that's like. And I want to be there for you. To be the person you come to, unafraid to say what's on your mind. I wanna help you in any way that I can for as long as I live, because... I don't know what you do to me, Stiles Stilinski, but you have changed my life so fundamentally that I'm more than half the person I was before I met you.
So.... I guess what I'm saying is that.... I like you. Seems so anticlimactic now, doesn't it? But I do. Totally and completely and undoubtedly so. And I want to see you and be with you every day of my life, twice in a day if we can manage it. I don't know if that makes me a silly girl with a bunch of emotions right now, but I had to write this, even if I'm going to be embarrassed by it the moment I hit send. I spent all those days in that garage kicking myself for not telling you this sooner. I didn't know if I was going to make it or not, of if telling you all this was supposed to make things better, but I knew I had to tell you. So I'm telling you now. I'm sorry it took so long, and I'm sorry you had to read all this.
I'm gonna hide under my covers now, okay?