I feel like I ought to be thrilled that everything's over, but... I'm not. Every time I look outside I see the damage in the street and it makes me think of all the terrible things that happened and I want to cry.
I think all rulers should have to see the consequences of their wars, first hand. What happens to the soldiers they raise up or hire, or the people in villages that are attacked and who work the fields that are burned. I wish I at least knew that when I went home I'd remember this so I'd really
know the full sacrifice that other people would be making for my decisions. Maybe then I'd know it meant something.