Tuesday September 9th 2008
What: Comfort and brilliant, stupid ideas
Where: The mall!
When: Tuesday evening
Rating: PG
Sometimes, something as simple as shopping could be the most overwhelming of tasks. Elle was tired all the time now, not just because of pregnancy and because of the change in her sleeping pattern. She was overly stressed and worried, and she cried so often she didn't think she would have any tears left at all by the time the babies came. When Rez had left, the apartment had felt vacant and empty, like his presence had filled every room. She found that she missed him laughing, she missed him walking into the living room and smiling at her and her huge belly, she missed him calling her Little Mama. It had been strange at first living with him, being in their strange friendship, but now Elle wondered how she was going to get along without him. She had taken for granted all the small things he had done for her, like make her tea and bring her a blanket when she was napping on the couch. All those little things she had to do alone now, little things that wore her out. Life was going to be impossible on her own.
Even worse than day to day living, her parents were putting pressure on her. She hadn't yet told Rez, because she wasn't sure how he would feel about it, but there had been letter correspondance between herself and her parents for the past few weeks. The wanted to know why she wasn't coming home, why she insisted on staying so far away when they had grandchildren coming and, most importantly, when they were going to meet the father. That had been a letter Elle hadn't answered yet. She didn't know what she should tell them, and while Rez had said he was willing to be the babies' father, she didn't know if he wanted to deal with her parents, if he wanted to tell them the truth or not. And now Rez was out of the picture, and her parents thought she had a father for her kids staying with her to help, and she didn't know how to tell them that he had changed his mind.
On top of all that, her clothing kept getting tighter by the day. The doctor had said that this was normal, especially in a pregnancy with twins, but that didn't make Elle feel any less like a bloated whale walking around. Dressed in her most flattering sweatpants, Elle was at the mall again to find herself something basic and black and, most importantly, something comfortable. It was hard enough finding something for a plus sized woman, let alone a pregnant one. Apparently, all preggos only wore flowered frocks and old lady clothes with runches and lace. After leaving the third store with no success, Elle sat on one of the benches in the middle of the walkway, pulled her sweater tightly around herself and started crying again. Not hysterical sobbing, but enough to be completely and totally miserable.
( Miss Franco, will you do me the honor of letting me be the fake father for your illegitimate children for as long as you want me to be? )