Sunday - August 17th, 2008 Who: Rez and Elle When: Early Sunday Morning What: Rez has done a bad, bad thing. Where: Their apartment Rated: TBD
When first he had come to TJS, Rez did not have a conscious recognition of things that had happened when he was shifted. But over the years, that had changed, though his ability to stay in control had not, at least not as much as he would have liked for it to. And right now, he really, really wished that he could go back to the time when he had no idea what had happened. When he blacked out and woke up and that was that. But unfortunately that was not the case. And as the sun began to rise and he made his way back to his apartment, still covered in the blood of the man he had killed, he was perfectly aware of what he had done.
Numb. That was the best word to describe how he felt for a good long while. He didn't feel anything as he walked, didn't feel anything as he let himself inside, as he headed to the shower to wash away the blood and dirt that was caked upon his human skin. He was numb as he dried off and then wrapped the towel around his waist. But then he headed to his room, but paused in Elle's doorway, and as he stood there watching her sleep, he started to feel not quite so numb anymore.
Normally Rez went to great effort to not wake up Elle when she was sleeping. She needed the rest. The babies needed the rest. But right now wasn't a time when he could really think about that. They had to talk. And if they didn't talk now, he might not talk at all. So still damp from his shower and clothed in nothing but the towel wrapped around his waist, he crossed into her room and took a seat on the side of the bed.
"Elle?" He kept his voice soft but firm, a hand reaching out to touch her shoulder but the pausing to simply hang there in mid air. "Can... you wake up, please? I need to talk to you." His voice sounded uncertain, and it cracked in places, like it sometimes did when he was upset. And right now, he was definitely upset. He'd never... he wasn't even sure how to begin to start processing any of this.