[Hector]
She can still get into my head. I don’t know how to deal with that. And I’m telling you here because I know, I know it’s crazy, but yourfuckingorganisation need to know how that feels. When somebody isn’t involved. When somebody has tried hard, SO hard, not to be involved, even when I wasn’t one of you and definitely afterwards, how that feels. I didn’t ask for this. I didn’t sign up for this. But I have a terrorist who can just pop into my head and look through my eyes and use my power when she feels like it. That is awful. So awful.
I don’t know what to do about it? I don’t. About what I’m meant to feel, or say, or do to combat it because no trainingI did mattered, nothing I worked for mattered, and the one thing I thought I could do was wrong. I thought maybe being a telepath would protect you in a way that you couldn’t. That you looked at minds, I could do something with them. And I was wrong. And I still don’t know how to feel about that.
Help me.
Is anybody else worried? About the implications of what happens if somebody finds out you’re an atavist, I mean. I’m a teacher. I’m in an uncomfortable position, being a telepath, ignoring some thoughts I hear from my students, acting on thoughts where I think I could help without it being unethical. I just wanted to know if anyone else has those problems.