12:18 PM
[ He knows it's not real. None of this is, if he's to believe Kitty but a thing doesn't have to be real to have a very real effect on his mindset. You'd think that such a simple thing as brushing your teeth in the morning would be a safe activity, but this is Marina where nothing is safe. He spends a good half minute staring at his reflection, fingers brushing angrily at the words but all that does is smear not-blood over his skin, a fresh batch welling up in their wake.
c o w a r d
Eventually he pulls himself away, unsure if the chickenscratched letters are still there. It stings his eyes but maybe it's just imagination running down his face. Either way he wishes his hair was cut differently, something to hide behind rather than tie back in barefaced honesty. Honest he can no longer claim.
He keeps his head bowed as he hits the streets, forcing himself through the routine motions while hunting for something to wear. A hat, a cap. Something that'd let him pass a shop window without feeling a deep stab of guilt at his own reflection. By now his fingers have rubbed his forehead into a true redness, regardless of the imaginary blood. Motions bordering on manic, Aidan does what he can to keep himself from scratching. From drawing blood. ]
Eventually he pulls himself away, unsure if the chickenscratched letters are still there. It stings his eyes but maybe it's just imagination running down his face. Either way he wishes his hair was cut differently, something to hide behind rather than tie back in barefaced honesty. Honest he can no longer claim.
He keeps his head bowed as he hits the streets, forcing himself through the routine motions while hunting for something to wear. A hat, a cap. Something that'd let him pass a shop window without feeling a deep stab of guilt at his own reflection. By now his fingers have rubbed his forehead into a true redness, regardless of the imaginary blood. Motions bordering on manic, Aidan does what he can to keep himself from scratching. From drawing blood. ]