I Resist the Muses

"What were your findings?"

"X5-493 has been classified as mildly psychotic Sir."

"Can he been salvaged?"

"Yes Colonel Lydecker. Psy-Ops should fix him."

"Do it."

"Yes Sir. If it does not work Sir?"

"Then we harvest his organs and terminate the subject."

"Yes Sir."

Ben paced the room they had him in, he didn't want to be here. He hadn't wanted to go back and now here he was in the basement with the other Nomlies. He could hear them as they spoke. His brows creased at the words mildly psychotic. So he was really crazy but only mildly so? He shook his head not understanding them. How could that be? He didn't think he was crazy at all. He was doing what they trained him to do. They wanted him to be a predator, a hunter, a soldier. Now it seemed as if that was wrong. He frowned at that and gave a frustrated growl. He tried so hard to be a good soldier and now they were saying he failed.

Maybe Max had been right, maybe everyone was right. Maybe he was just broken, maybe he should be put down. A deep growl sounded from inside, no he wouldn't let them win. He'd play their games until he could get out then go and then he'd show Max he wasn't a Nomlie. He'd prove to everyone he was a good soldier.

That he wasn't a broken toy soldier.

Ben 'X5-493' // Dark Angel // 230 Words

I wish I could apologize to Maxie for breaking. I broke and she tried fixing me and I hurt her. Apologize for making her kill me, not giving her a choice. I should have tried finding my siblings when things started going wrong. Found a better way to seek them out then killing and leaving my barcode. Maxie was the one I thought would understand me and maybe she did. She knew something was wrong and I didn't want to admit it. I didn't want to admit I was a 'Nomlie. I can admit it now, I can admit I was a bad soldier, but I'm fixed now. I promise.

I just want to find Maxie and let her see me, see that I'm not broken. To tell her I am sorry for letting her down and not being stronger. To have her keep me from ever breaking again, but it's best she doesn't see me. I just watch her and try to make sure she is safe. I fight the longing to belong in Terminal City with the others.

Someday she will know I am sorry.

Ben 'X5-493' // Dark Angel // 185 Words

Ben had escaped from Manticore again and was on the run.
Ben/X5-493 // Dark Angel // 255 words

My name is Ben. Most commonly known in records by my designation x5-493. A corporation named Manticore created us to be super soldiers. We were born and raised in a military facility so guess you could say we give military brat a whole new meaning. We were created from human and animal DNA, me and others of my series X5 got cat in our cocktail.

One of ours Jack was killed because of his seizures, and our leader Zack decided we had to run. So we jumped the fence and seperated. That's where I failed, the world was too confusing and I had none of my sibs to help me and I became broken. The Blue Lady didn't protect me well, but I tried to keep her happy to protect my sibs. I killed. I was found because I wanted to be. I was trying to find Zack, have him come but instead my little sister max did.

She tried, tried to fix me but I was too broken. We fought and she broke my leg. That was then we heard the choppers. We knew it was Manticore, Lydecker. I begged Max to not let them get me because I knew where I would go. Down with the Nomlies, and I didn't want to go to the bad place. I know it caused her pain because I was her big brother, the one that would stay up at night with her and tell her stories so she wasn't bored. She snapped my neck and left. She thought she saved me, but Manticore they couldn't let me go.

So here I am now with Manticore gone. Out here alone trying not to break again.

Making my way alone.