I Resist the Muses

Dear ______,

Thank you for sending me here. I've missed speaking with other people, even if I don't have any bloody idea of what they mean most of the time.
Thank you for letting me meet Isabel. Really. Life is worth living again.

Do try to remember to keep up with me. I know once you get immersed in work, you forget about me, but I don't want to get the boot, so please keep up.

I know I'm supposed to only answer the questions as if I were living in London still, but that's rather difficult now, so you;ll have to be firm with me. You know how much I like women being firm with me ;)

Cheers!

George

"There is no agony like bearing an untold story inside of you." - Maya Angelou


Yeah, well keeping secrets is hard. Especially when your wife is looking at you and you know she knows. And I won't tell her, never. What she thinks happened isn't nearly as bad as what is still happening so I'll leave her with her small hate and put up with the barbs and hostility. Jack, the evil bastard, he thinks its funny. He winds her up every chance he gets. I've told him to stop. The more he winds her up the more she's going to figure out.

She just thinks Jack is covering for my playing around. I'll take that over the truth right now.
The only thing is that Alison isn't stupid. She'll twig eventually and then? I don't know. I just don't know.


Sgt. George Carter
The Sweeney

Prompt #20

When you make love, do you look in the mirror?
Who do you think of?
Does he look like me?
Do you tell lies?
And say that it's forever?
Do you think twice, or just touch and see?

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That is one of the most frightening things I have ever read. I wonder...

For Alison, did she see someone other than me after a bit? It was all fireworks and candy to begin with but after I got on the squad... well to say she cooled would be an understatement. I think her accusations are what give me the thought in the first place. I mean I don't normally, you know, but after one particularly close shave, well things happen don't they?

She and Jack, both of them, they hate each other but they're so alike. They're looking for someone and I think they're just making do with me. Or maybe they just hate themselves so much they don't know how to treat anyone.

I do wonder who they see, I do wonder if they tell lies, do they even think of me at all?

I reckon not.


Sgt. George Carter
The Sweeney

What song? Well a mate told me that this American bloke, Iggy Pop has one... Cock in my Pocket.

Didn't give it much thought till I heard it.  I thought it just meant I was randy all the time. That's also not particularly true. Yeah well, so it is particularly true, but I can focus on what I need to don't I?

After a listen though, I took exception to that comparison as I rather enjoy romance thank  you. Works a damn site better than the direct approach I can tell you.

I reckon he was just jealous.

Well I've had a few times of need and the same person's been there for all of 'em. Jack Regan, my Guvenor.

It's odd to think that when I first worked under him, I didn't like him at all. I was quite the "by the book" lad back then. Things don't half change do they.

Jack has always been there for me. Even when I thought he was knifing me in the back, it turns out he wasn't.

He picked me up when my Alison died, he's kept me in the right frame for promotions, he's sat with me on lonely birthdays, he's even kicked a bastard nearly to death because he landed a pipe to my midsection.

I'd go to Jack for anything.



DS George Carter
The Sweeney

Best advice I ever got...

Get up off your arse boy, moping won't solve anything.

Jack and Mum said it to me when Alison died. Mum said it when Dad died. Mr Haskins said it every time Jack was this close to going.

And I listened. If I'd just sat and moped, well I'd be drunk and on the dole. Instead I'm a copper, I help others as I can, so they have no cause to mope.

Someone's got to be out there doing and it may as well be me.

Yeah I have been mistaken for someone else. Minor villain from Bermondsey. I had to impersonate the bloke to get the inside news on a blag. The weird thing is, I liked all his mates. We had lots in common and It got me thinking.

We weren't that different, just on opposite sides of the law. He was just trying to get by like me.
It was very scary and quite the eye opener.

What moment from your life do you wish you could re-live again?

I wish I could have those few minutes again with Alison. Before she left for school on the day she was killed. I'd have told her again how much I loved her.

Sure I can cook. My mum made sure I could feed myself. Good thing too because now Alison's gone, well I have to take care of myself, don't I?

Anyways nothing lures a bird like you cooking for them. I can even do that vegetarian stuff. The birds like that even more. And when they're happy, well, you might get happy too.

I cook for Jack too. Breakfast when I crash at his gaff, but sometimes dinner too. He can manage a steak but not the rest of it. I don't like eating alone, so I fill in. He's not so good with the washing up either. I think his ex-missus spoiled him.


George Carter
The Sweeney

Dreams? Sex and football. Sometimes flying but mostly sex. Followed by football.

Sometimes Alison is in my dreams, not the sex ones though. She's in them less and less which worries me.  I miss her and I don't want to lose her again, even if it is dreams and even if she is usually giving me a right bollocking. Sometimes she turns into Jack in those dreams. That's getting a bit bizarre.

The football ones are the best. Me putting that final strike in for Chelsea, giving us the FA Cup. All of Wembly on their feet. Well the Chelsea half at any rate. It's a brilliant goal too, just outside the box, right footed boot, curling in just beyond the keeper's fingertips. Brilliant.

I like those best.

What is my greatest fear?

Oddly enough, it isn't being killed on the job. Even with more and more villains having shooters, well even the hard ones don't want that much bird. The mad ones, yeah, they don't care but we don't generally get the mad one. The Murder Squad has that joy.

I think maybe it's getting old.

I don't want to be old and alone. I see too many of the fellows on the squad going that route. They keep going because they have nothing else. More and more risk until something breaks, usually them. I watch Jack drive himself everyday, harder and harder. He's got no one but me and I think that scare me a bit too. I don't want to end up like him, no life, no family, no partner...


George Carter
The Sweeney

Prompt #2: Family
muse: Sgt. George Carter
fandom: The Sweeney

Family. I've got loads. There's mum and me sisters, dad's passed on. There's gran, my aunties, cousins and the neices. Sunday lunch gets busy.

Sadly, I don't see Alison's parents much. Nice folks but they weren't too happy I'd married her in the first place, and I know they blame me for her death. All the coppers doing. Well, I'm only just starting to not blame me and I know I didn't have anything to do with it. I'm not sure if they'll ever reach a point where they accept it.

Still I'm lucky my family is big and forgiving. They took good care of me after she died and I can't thank them enough.

Then there's Jack. He's like family too. I think mum has a bit of a thing for him. He's got no one of his own, him being divorced and all, so we've taken him into our family. I know he appreciates it, even if he does complain.

Character: George Carter
Fandom: The Sweeney

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Who am I?

Well I'm George Carter and I'm a policeman, old Bill if you like. I'm one of the Sweeny, the Flying Squad. We see to the blaggers and other violent criminals.

I'm a Chelsea supporter all my life. I like sport. Play when I can, although that's not so much now I'm on the Sweeny. Life isn't my own anymore I can tell you. Still I get a bit of boxing in. Helps keep me fit. That and I'm in punch ups more often than not.

I'm a South London lad, married a posh bird though. She was a schoolteacher and older than me. Still don't know what she saw in me, other than my boyish good looks, kind nature and other skills I won't mention ;) She was run down by a car this year and I miss her something awful.  So far 1975 hasn't been too good to me.