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I have an idea. And maybe the first part of the idea is to admit to you that I'm sharing memories with someone I thought was fictional. Lily Evans Potter lives in my head. I think by now it's probably a reality that most of us on the network (and maybe in the town?) have these memories. It isn't up to me to understand why. That's not my thing.

What I'd like to do is give you a spot to tell your story. I'm a writer -- honestly, I'm just a really bad unpublished poet -- but I spend my day taking care of my parents. We've got a really big living room. There's space out back. What I'm proposing is something akin to a writer's salon. You could come over, no questions asked. We'd have set times where we could gather.

You can talk to people? But most of all, you can write down your experiences. We can collect them physically or on GoogleDocs. I'm a democratic soul and am happy to take a straight up vote. But what I really want to get down to is by telling our stories, we might help other people. We might make it easier for them to live with these memories and emotions inside them. What I'm thinking (and hoping) is that this is meant to connect us. So, instead of living with trauma and I don't know ... shame? We can work it out together.

Would anyone be interested? Or should I shut up forever?

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Anonymous thoughts and commenters welcome!

I've quit worrying about when the poetry will come. Why? Because it will eventually. In the meantime, I'm going to keep living my life. Buzzfeed decided to compound my decision by legitimizing what I'm saying to you with a Tarot reading.

Try yours. You may get a confirmation, too.

What I'm truly hoping is that Mom and Dad can make it to the next Roller Derby event. It's good having something to look forward to. And it's good kicking a little ass.

My own dreams have made me particularly introspective recently, so I decided it's time for another anonymous post. This one isn't for any academic purpose (though each post is inherently good data for academic purposes despite their individual intentions), but it seems that a lot of us have found them cathartic. So, as usual, feel free to comment below--you will be anonymous unless you choose to be unmasked.

What lesson(s) have you learned from yourself the person you've been dreaming about?

My greatest lesson has been learning to truly value the people in my life who care about me. I already did, but there's something to be said for consciously recognizing that value each time I think of them.

LAVENDER

Hey. I have some good news and I want to share it with you. Would you like me to wait until we can see each other in person or would you like it now?

JAHAN, LYRA, REMI

Hey, guys. I know things have been weird terrible different lately, but Avery and I just found out that she's pregnant and you were the first people I wanted to tell, outside of our relatives and all that. So [...] yeah. We're having a kid and it's kind of amazing. She's due in October.

So as it turns out, snow and cold weather is good for neither assistive devices nor poetry. Both the mobility of my parents and the mobility of what little words I possess are in the toilet.

Thanks January. You better believe I'm ready to put you in the rearview. Spring is too close for this.

[JAHAN]

I saw what you wrote on the network. And it seems so wrong for me t And I was just thinking about how it might be a good idea to talk? I can listen. We were ther

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lol so this happened. Merry Christmas to my eyes, no love from these demon dream memories.


Also, has anyone tried talking about this shit with their parents? Because I did and it went a whole lot of nowhere. When I tried to explain that the fact that I went from 20/20 vision to being nearsighted and farsighted overnight, my parents said, "Well, you never did eat enough vegetables." When I told them I think I'm Harry's dad from Harry Potter, they just go "Ach, you always did read those books too much!"

Like literally, they are not having it.

A) Who did this?
B) How dare you?
C) Why am I is James not even an option?! Fucking rude.

I know that there is a lot going on this month with the holidays and there are so many fun events to keep track of, so I just wanted to remind everyone that I'll be joining the animal shelter with a booth at the Winter Fair on the 22nd. We'll be there with several pets that will be up for adoption or just seeking out some good old pets from anyone that passes by and will also be selling t-shirts, sweatshirts, and other merchandise for the animal shelter and will have a "barkery" of good, organic treats for your pets at home. All proceeds will be split between the animal shelter and the rescue.

LAVENDER, JAHAN, LYRA, REMI

Hi. Are you

Happy Small Business Saturday! I hope you all didn’t blow all your money at big retailers yesterday and can still get out there and support our local economy, etc etc, but make sure you have a little extra leftover to come have one of the drinks off our seasonal menu. I gotta say, I think I have the most fun coming up with new twists on the holiday classics. Plus, we’ve got some cool stouts and porters on tap, too, like a chocolate peanut butter stout. I promise it’s really good.

I also have a wall of thankfulness up at the bar to remind us of the good things we’re fighting for every day, to keep us motivated when the world is bleak or on fire. Or, you know, just things to make us smile. My favorite is: I’m thankful that my boyfriend didn’t make me run a 5K this year. (That’s mine.)

LAVENDER, JAHAN, LYRA, REMI

I know that I have been sketchy and weird lately and I'm sorry for it. The last couple of months have been strange and I haven't really known what to do with or think about them so I was trying to keep it all close and guarded. It's left me keeping something from you guys, though, and I feel like the worst sort of person for doing it so I wanted to change that. I'm sorry again for doing this over the network, but it seemed like the easiest way to do it.

Lavender, I told you recently that I wasn't having the dreams like everyone else. That was a lie and another thing that I'm sorry for. I have been having the dreams for several months now, I just didn't recognize what they were or what they meant until recently and then I had an even harder time accepting any of it. The truth is that I've been dreaming about Peter Pettigrew. I know that's all relevant to you guys given your own dreams and I should have told you sooner, but [...] I just didn't know how to approach it. I don't even know if I'm approaching it correctly now.

Anyway. [...] I'm sorry. Again.

AVERY

I told them.

Everyone should go ahead and wish my cousin, Lavender, a happy birthday, because she surely deserves to have some love showered on her. I'll start:

Happy birthday, Lavender. I hope that this year is the best one yet.

HARRY POTTER PEOPLE*
* basically those that have mentioned their dreams in public where Abby might have seen ;)

Hello! Hi. For those of you that don't know me, I'm Abby Moore and I moonlight as Ginny Weasley. I realized that we have a bit of a group of us and I was wondering if perhaps some of you might be interested in meeting up for some dinner or drinks or something of the like? No hard feelings if you'd rather not, but I figure if we're all dreaming of interconnected lives, maybe it's a sign that we should know each other in this life, too. Obviously some of us do know each other, but I figured it was a thought.

Let me know if it's something you'd be interested in! I don't mind doing some planning and making arrangements.

[REMI, LYRA, & LIAM]

Okay, so, here are my plans Halloween 2k18: 1) Drinking 2) Scary movies/It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown 3) Staying up all night so as to avoid strikingly vivid dreams of my alternate self's untimely death.

I'm sad that I don't like this day anymore :( I wonder if I can get a bereavement day approved for 11/1 for my other self...lol.

[LAVENDER]

Just fyi, Halloween might be rough.

We can get victory over even the most insurmountable task with a fresh, succinct and bulleted list. That's how I got through moving half-way across the country (Iowa is half-way, you can't tell me any differently), got through my MFA and made it back home again.

That's how things work in the Craig household. We have a step-by-step list for getting through the day.

And because I want to keep getting through the day, I need to do a list for you. I've been reading through your old entries. I know you're having dreams. I know some of you are talking about them. I know that you are pretty sure these dreams have something to do with another existence, maybe even one you thought was fiction, and it isn't just fanciful creativity.

I'm having them too and they're keeping me up, they're sapping my attention, they're eating at me from the inside and it's because I'm completely and utterly alone. So, if you could help me cross this off my list, that would be grand.

Who knows Lily Evans? Or, rather, Lily Potter. She and I are sharing some brainwaves.

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i made that and am not above showing off a lil bit.

so this time of the year is dangerous because all of fall flavored things are available at the coffee places and i know i could get them decaf or something, but i really can't and i also can't say no to having one of each in a twelve hour period so i may or may not ever sleep again. but on the plus side i did all my reading and homework. i might not have retained any of it because my brain isn't going to shut up ever, but it's done so go hannah, high five for hannah.

So, hey there! Hey Dunhaven. Maybe you don't remember me? I mean, wh I'm Lavender Craig. I graduated from Athena in 2009 and I moved to Iowa. That's kind of hilarious in retrospect, but all in all what I really want to say is ... I'm back.

Hello there. I hope everyone's doing really well.

One thing I've started doing is cross stitch. I just finished this:

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(Oh God, somebody get me out of this house.)