Who: Easton and Shoko
Where: The beach
When: At night
What: Commiserating? East is miserable, for sure
He was starting to understand why alcoholism was such a raging disease; he couldn't speak for druggies, but that blissful nothingness you felt after having one too many was a pretty welcome sensation right about now. What Sam had told him, what she'd done and everything that it meant...all of that was too much to deal with. It was too much to ask him to feel the loss of everything he'd foolishly assumed that they would have. Then again, when you're madly in love with your best friend, the person you don't think would hurt you in a million years, perhaps being an idiot comes along with the territory. Easton certainly felt like a bloody wank about now; he'd been able to sense that attraction, the sexual tension between Kiernan and Sam from day one and still he'd said something when it was obvious (now) he should have just kept his mouth shut. Here he was a day later and he hadn't heard a word from Sam. He half hadn't expected to - she was free now, if it was Kiernan she wanted, she could go after him. If their positions had been reversed, there was no way he would have stayed away, stayed quiet this long. His apologies would have been never-ending, he'd be out there ready to do
anything to prove to her how much he really did love her....cut the other person from his life, lose all ties with them, and focus entirely on Sam. Maybe their relationship was more one-sided then he'd thought.
Sitting on the beach in the dark, welcoming the cold wind that blew in off the water, Easton's thoughts took a rather depressing turn. It was in large part, he assumed, to the bottle of whiskey clasped in one hand, nearly half-way empty by now. Then there was the matter of that new little voice that had popped into his head, the one that kept reminding him of that knife dug into his back, unable or not wanting to let that hurt begin to heal over anytime soon.
You did everything for her, gave her everything!, that little voice hollered,
And what did you get in return? He shook his head against it, as if some physical movement might banish it from his brain, but it didn't seem to be going anywhere anytime soon.
He'd been boxing up the things Sam had left in his room, preparing them to leave for her the next day, when it had all hit him again. He'd been handling it as well as could be expected, still managing to attend class - save for Blades - and going about his daily routine. Feeling nothing, thinking about nothing but the classwork seemed to help keep him occupied. Sitting for too long with nothing to fill his time is when it would hit, when he would remember how much things had changed with one bloody full moon. He'd lost more than just the girl he'd always assumed he'd marry in all of this, he'd lost his best friend as well. He'd always told Sam nothing could tear them apart, but then he hadn't for a moment considered that she would ever cheat, especially not with someone she'd worked so hard to convince him was just a friend. And the worst part was that he believed her, he'd let go of whatever issues he'd had with Kiernan - or tried to - and chosen to trust Sam instead. And look where that had gotten him.
East raised the bottle to his lips again, took a long swallow as he watched the waves roll in, barely able to make out the white foam of their crests as they headed for shore. He savored that alcohol burn as it sank down his throat, settling int he pit of his stomach. He hoped they were fucking happy together. He hoped ripping his heart out and destroying everything between he and Sam had been worth it.