I have this incredible power, that allows me to help people. But I can't. Because every time I use my power, it hurts me. But I don't care. I guess that makes me selfish on my part, having no regard for my own safety, but I would rather help others than help myself. All I want to do is help people. I became queen so I could lead my people, and try and make life better for both Moroi and dhampirs alike. Sometimes I don't think I do a very good job. I think I do, but I suppose I'll always have doubts.
I'm glad that I don't have to worry about queen here, but I'm worried about being away from court all at the same time.