Paradiso

[Beacon Hills]
I talked to Arva and she's going to send me home so I can catch up with the rest of you. She said that I shouldn't be gone more than a week or two, so if I leave today, I'll be back in time for the babies to be born.

Can you guys please look after Malia while I'm gone?


[Finnick]
I'm going home for a while. I'll be back before Malia has the babies. I know you're busy building your house, but can you check on her for me?


[Malia]
I promise I'll be back for the babies.

My boobs are like really ginormously big. I think I'd feel sexy because of that if my belly wasn't even bigger.

[Stiles]

Hey. I miss you

Do you want to feel the babies moving?

This was a really exciting week, as the walls went up and it really started to look like a cabin. The walls are done, the loft and roof supports are in place, and next week the roof goes on. Thanks so much to Nick for all your help, especially with the really heavy, high stuff like the upper parts of the walls and the ridge pole and beam. Thanks for Bucky and Steve for taking a little time out from your awesome chicken coop to help, and of course thanks to my main man in all of this, Scott.

Stiles!!!!!

Stiles are you okay?????????

I...I....I had a dream.

Right, so, access to relatively high-tech communication aside... They weren't kidding about making something out of nothing. I suppose we all have the advantage of already knowing how to communicate using language instead of glyphs, and the most practical ways of creating fire. I do commend the locals for choosing a tropical locale, the climate is perfect... Mm. Yes, compared to northern California, this is something I could definitely get used to.

Unfortunately, I didn't bring my bikini. ... Or a pillow. Hm.

That said... What sort of population is already here? I've scrolled a little, but honestly, I'm still disoriented enough that I'd rather just have a conversation with another living, breathing human being about the state of things.

Why does nobody love me?

I mean, Isaac didn't. Stiles doesn't. Lots of people want to have sex with me but nobody loves me.

I mean I'm not mad. I'm just not sure what I'm doing wrong.

It's true what they say, isn't it? About getting horny when you're pregnant.

Because I am, a lot.

And Stiles won't sleep with me

Anyone want to hook up? No commitment, no strings.

Do you know what I am?

I am the sexiest pregnant girl ever.

Has everyone decided to go home? Am I the only one still here?

So being pregnant is weird. Like...I'm getting fat, but only where the baby is. The rest of me's still skinny. It looks weird. Is that normal?

Honestly, I think I still look pretty hot. And hey, some guys think pregnant girls are even hotter.

This wouldn't be too bad except for all the puking.

[Isaac]

Did you get an appointment with the ultrasound?

[Stiles]

Was sex better with me or with Lydia? She has more experience, and I'm just curious about how much difference it makes.

Okay, so this is super weird but I woke up yesterday remembering more than I did today. Like, a lot more.

What do people remember from back home. Does anyone remember the Dread Doctors? The Dead Pool? Teenage Derek...?

Hey. I - didn't mean to freak you out this morning,

I was just tired and confused feeling a little sick and kind of still asleep and you're where I go when I feel that way.

It must have been kind of weird for you, huh? Anyway I won't do it again.

Until you ask me to. I want you to ask me to.

I need a haircut.

Who wants to help? I'm tired of always having my hair in my face and I want something cooler and more manageable.

Oh, and I woke up this morning remembering a lot of stuff I didn't yesterday. Has this happened to anyone else?

Hi. I'm Malia.

And I...well, I have rabbit skins that I've cured. They would be really good for blankets or coats or gloves or something or you could even make them into moccasins. Or...well, whatever you want. They're really soft and I think you should be able to find a use for them?

I've got a pile of them outside my shelter, come by and take one if you want it.

[Isaac]
I made you a scarf out of one. If you want it. You don't have to.

It's...a peace offering?

To those of you who still don't have beds, if you've been having trouble sleeping I'm sure that we can start building hammocks for you or something. It's looking like everybody might get one eventually? I don't want to assume but they're coming in waves, it's weird.

I also feel like we should start trying to do more little stuff to show the gods and goddesses we appreciate what they're doing for us. I'm kind of coming up with a blank for suggestions though... I'm not usually the guy who comes up with the ideas. Any suggestions? They don't seem like he kind who would be too thrilled with sacrifice so I think it's safe to say that's off the table.

Except for the scary one. He'd probably be up for it.
If you can read this I didn't mean that you're my favorite?

ARVA.
You're probably frustrated today. I'm sorry. You don't have to respond, I just wanted to let you know that I left something for you by the waterfall a little north of us. It's kind of awful and it's the third one I tried to make since I saw you and I know you probably can't use it and I know it's stupid I just thought you'd like it, maybe. You don't have to take it if you don't want to.

MALIA.
I think the gods gave me these prenatal vitamins, I found them. I want you to start taking them, okay? They'll be good for you and the baby. How are you feeling? I wanted to know if you would be up for seeing one of the doctors, just for a check up. I've been talking to them but I don't want to make any solid plans until I know if you'd prefer a male or a female doctor.

LYDIA.
I'm going to start cooking in about half an hour, unless that's too early. I'm really looking forward to
It's getting more ridiculous every day

CHRIS.
Hey so, when you don't want to be an adult anymore, how do you find the off switch? I'm asking for a friend.

[Lynne]

I don't know how to apologize enough. I was terrible to you and I said things that I shouldn't have. I'm leaving camp, going back to my den. You don't have to be afraid of me. I'm...I'm not going to explain why I did what I did, there are no possible excuses. I was in the wrong. And I want you to know that I would never hurt you, whether you believe it or not.

I'm sorry.

[Isaac]

The bed is yours. Keep it. Be comfortable. You deserve it after what I've put you through.

And since I'm going to find a new den and am going to try to stay away from people as much as possible, I'm going to be completely honest for once. So here goes. You are the kindest, gentlest, and most wonderful person I've ever met. You've been better to me than I ever deserved. I know that. And I'm grateful. More grateful than you will ever know. And when it comes to the trust thing that we've talked about in the past, I just want you to know that I've always trusted you. I'm shit at wording things but I've been so out of sorts the past week or so not because I don't trust you but because I'm really really scared. I'm scared of having this baby. And I'm scared of losing you. I lied when I talked to you last week. I care about you more than I admitted. You're...the bright star in my morning and you've given me a taste of happiness that I've never had before. You're good looking and kind and...and okay yes fine I have feelings for you that I never meant to have, dammit. I know they're not welcome, that's why I tried to hide them and that's what has been screwing with my head for some time now. I didn't mean to. I'm sorry. And I hope eventually you'll forgive me. And thaf's why I've been confusing and not making sense and changing my mind on everything. I knew inshould want to sleep with other people and yet I didn't. I only wanted to sleep with you. Because i - you know what I mean. There's no point in saying it.

Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I brought this on myself and I deserve it.

[Lydia]

Take care of Isaac. I'm going into the woods again, going to find a new den where I can't upset anyone else.

[Unfiltered]

I'm...I'm sorry. I'm just sorry. About everything.

Uh
Crap, do I just
Should not feel this awkward, like at all
Fuck it I'm gonna Hi guys, I just got here last night while you were all having your bonfire. I just wanted to introduce myself so...I'm Lynne, hello. I don't know, do you guys usually elaborate more on these things? Do you give a crap what I did for a living or like are we just doing names and calling it done, or...? Wow, stop talking before you sound like a complete spaz

When I agreed to come here, the idea of actually having a baby was...just an idea, you know? Sure, I knew I'd go it but it wasn't real. I mean, I was still a virgin when I came here so it had absolutely never crossed my mind to think about it in...detail. But now...it's like a month later and...there's nothing like waking up in the morning to hear that tiny little heartbeat inside of you. My baby is alive. It's real...a tiny little person growing inside of me and I've never wanted to protect anything so much in my whole life. I've never even seen her but I already love her and I can't stop thinking what a wonderful life she's going to have and how beautiful she's going to be and...it's magic. I've never loved anything like this before. I spent eight years all alone not caring about anything but myself and now...

It's magic. I can't wait to meet her.

[Isaac]

Thank you. Just...thank you. I suck at words and feelings and all that but this little baby, she...thank you.

Well, arriving soaked in a storm was... not the entrance I was hoping to make earlier.

But all in all? Probably not the worst I've ever done.

Anyone else notice how it rained and is raining everywhere BUT on the main camp today?